#talking doesnt help

I hope I feel better soon too! Thank u for your concern, I appreciate it

Silence.

Stupid mobile versions of tumblr don't allow for a "read more" break. :T Just keep scrolling if you don't want to see me bitch about life. For the past few days, I've been having a bout with depression. Something I've never dealt with before, and I really don't know how to deal with it. I've stayed up all night, contemplating; slept all day, and have discussed my issues with numerous people. All of which have offered solutions and suggestions, but none of which am I willing to take. :T Talking about it doesn't seem to help. I've lost my best friend in the whole world due to my own insecurities. The last 5 girls I've showed genuine interest in (in the span of 4 years) all rejected me in some way or form, the most recent one being the domino that sent me down this fucking path. And when I showed the slightest bit of concern (as I hadn't heard from her in over a week) for another friend yesterday, I was chewed out for "being her father", by asking where she was. This tipped me over the edge into the person I am right now. A sulking miserable pile of flesh. It's like, no matter how much love I try to give to others, it doesn't amount to anything. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I feel so worthless and unloved. Is that selfish? To want to be loved? Is it selfish to want to have people to give and take love with forever? I'm gonna spend a few days away from the Internet (At least, stuff that allows me interaction). Away from tumblr, Facebook, Skype, LIVE, everything. I has planned to do this starting yesterday, but I realized that I hadn't told some of you. Sorry you had to find out this way... That's all I have to say. I guess I'll see you guys later :T