how did you become how you are, i guess? this isn’t me being sarcastic for once, just wondering… what happened?
Well, a lot of stuff. I'm not willing to share most of it on here for the world to see.
What I will share is the gist of the major life events— my mom killed herself because she hated her life (mostly because of my dad) and I wasn't there to save her. And I was part of the problem honestly, I was a coward hiding in the basement since they fought so much. And I was hiding in the basement when she died.
It was after her death that I knew I needed to be something for her, to do something important, change myself and change the world. I couldn't keep on being the useless piece of shit that I was. The piece of shit that killed my mom.
I went through another traumatic experience about a year later that involved blah blah blah, Winter and I almost died, and I saw some fucked up shit. It led me down a toxic rabbit hole; I spent way too much time reading about and seeing more fucked up shit online, and decided the world needed to fucking burn.
We need a hard reset. To wipe out all humans. And the only way to do that is to take over the world and blow it up. Pretty simple.