#tafh

Peter Russo is a foul-mouthed, gun-wielding, angry, bitter, mean defrocked priest. And Nole owes him everything.

Castiel tried to swallow the dread. “Have you… have you ever prayed to be different?” Even to his own ears his voice sounded small and pathetic. Those were not the words he’d wanted to start with.

For a second Dean didn’t answer but only looked at him with the exhaustion written plainly on his face. “Cas, you know I have.”

“But did you ever believe that there was someone there to listen and maybe to make you… better?”

“No.” The admission made Dean look nearly guilty and Cas hated himself for dragging him down with him.

His next words came out rushed: “Well, I did. And you know what? It didn’t change a fucking thing.” A bitter smile made its way onto his lips, twisted at his gut. “I prayed for hours and still… I’m still like that. And I still look at you and…” His treacherous voice broke.

“Cas…”

Castiel closed his eyes and tried to steel himself against the softness in Dean’s voice. He needed to say the words. “No, let me say it. I look at you and… I see things that I know I can’t have. That I don’t deserve because I did nothing but sin. I- “

Dean didn’t even let him finish: “That’s some bullshit! You fucked up, yeah, but you didn’t sin. And I gotta talk to whoever told you that.”

“Nobody had to tell me that, Dean. You don’t know what I did.” The images came flooding back uninvited and made Castiel feel very, very small. Nobody had to tell him that, but they did. His father, Michael, his mother, his priest, Daphne.

Chapters: 66/? Fandom: Persona 4 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Hanamura Yosuke/Seta Souji, Hanamura Yosuke/Narukami Yu Characters: Hanamura Yosuke, Seta Souji, Shadow Seta Souji, Dojima Nanako, Satonaka Chie, Amagi Yukiko, Investigation Team (Persona Series), Narukami Yu, Kuma | Teddie (Persona 4), Kujikawa Rise, Tatsumi Kanji, Dojima Ryotaro, Shirogane Naoto Additional Tags: AU, everybody loves nanako, Angst, Loneliness, Depression, Fluff, Happy Ending, Jealousy, also I wasn't sure if I should tag this but, nanako does that thing in november, but then it's ok because holy shit no not going through with that, souji is sad and bitter, it's really mostly yosuke and souji and nanako, But the team is all here, there's innuendo, just be warned, Lots of kissing, SO MUCH FLUFF, no really Summary:

Souji Seta hated Yosuke Hanamura, who was everything he'd never been allowed to be.

AU where Yosuke - Golden Child of Inaba, beloved by all - is the leader of the Investigation team, and Souji Seta is just a bitter transfer student with a shadow of his own. Yosuke may be the one who saves him, but it was Nanako who made it possible.

[Ongoing; has moved past The True Ending and is projected to last until after uni.]

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The Smashing Pumpkins announce the reissue track listing for The Aeroplane Flies High boxset, read the full press release on SmashingPumpkins.com

TRACKLISTING

CD1: Bullet With Butterfly Wings Bullet with Butterfly Wings ...Said Sadly You're All I've Got Tonight Clones (We're All) A Night Like This Destination Unknown Dreaming Deluxe Edition Bonus Tracks: Movers and Shakirs Germans in Leather Pants Millieu Jackboot A/Ab/E/B/F# Rings Ugly Blaster Caster Little Ditty Verily I Say New Waver The Groover Ravi Revi Roo On The Loose Slurry tracks 8 – 22 Recorded at Gravity Studios, Chicago, IL, March 15, 1994 – March 16, 1994  

CD2: 1979 1979 Ugly Believe Cherry The Boy Set the Ray to Jerry Deluxe Edition Bonus Tracks: Tonight, Tonight (acoustic version/instrumental rough) Jupiter's Lament (billy solo) Zero (8trk demo) Marquis in Spades (8trk demo) Have Love Will Travel (8trk demo) Infinite Sadness (siamese outtake) 1979 (acoustic) Aeroplane Flies High (acoustic snippet) Take me Down (instrumental) Star Song (dat mix/vocal rough)

CD3: Zero Zero God Mouths of Babes Tribute to Johnny Marquis in Spades Pennies Pastichio Medley LP ONLY: 7. Pastichio Medley (with fades) Deluxe Edition Bonus Tracks: By Starlight Set The Ray to Jerry Mouths of Babes Cupid de Locke Galapagos To Forgive Lily (my one & only) Here is no Why Tracks 8 – 15 Recorded Live at the Double Door, Chicago, IL, February, 27 1995

CD4: Tonight, Tonight Tonight, Tonight Meladori Magpie Rotten Apples Medellia of the Gray Skies Jupiter's Lament Blank Tonite Reprise Deluxe Edition Bonus Tracks: Stumbleine Ugly Meladori Magpie God Love Pissant Hello Kitty Kat Special Winner's Song I Just Wanna Make Love To You Tracks 8 – 16 Recorded Live at the Double Door, Chicago, IL, February, 21, 27, 28, 1995

CD5: Thirty-Three Thrity-Three The Last Song The Aeroplane Flies High Transformer The Bells My Blue Heaven Deluxe Edition Bonus Tracks: Silverfuck (live 7/10/96)

Deluxe Edition Live CD CD6: Live Inside the Dark Globe Where Boys Fear To Tread Cleveland, Ohio 7.3.96 Zero San Francisco, California 2.7.96 Fuck You / An Ode To No One Stockholm, Sweden 4.10.96 X.Y.U. Los Angeles, California 2.3.96 To Forgive Washington, D.C. 1.6.96 Thirty-Three New York City, New York 1.11.96 Tonight, Tonight New York City, New York 1.11.96 Lily (My One And Only) Washington, D.C. 1.5.96 Porcelina Of The Vast Oceans Cleveland, Ohio 7.3.96 Jellybelly Gent, Belgium 4.6.96 Bullet With Butterfly Wings Los Angeles, California 2.3.96 By Starlight Buffalo, New York 7.2.96 Bodies Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 7.5.96 Silverfuck Copenhagen, Denmark 4.9.96