@tabletread said:“ All I ever wanted was to live a happy life… I wanted to be fine!” (:
dean frowns, downing what’s left of his beer as they sit at the table together. kevin didn’t deserve this. he deserved so much better---he was made for so much more. “this life...” he starts, unsure if he wants to continue. he looks over at the boy and frowns more. “it gets to ya...” he says with a fake smile, a sad smile. one that screams i’m sorry. “nobody ever asks for it, seems like you just get sucked in and it’s not fair,” he shakes his head, pulling a face. “it’s not fair at all, but you keep on because your sacrifice will save someone else. i would never have asked his of anyone, but it seems like god’s got different thoughts, so,” he shrugs, wishing he had more beer.
“and it’s gonna be fine one day, kevin. you’re gonna be fine. happy,” he lies through his teeth (easily and well) because he knows that this can’t end well, but kevin needs to hear that he’s going to be okay---something dean never gets to hear and for that reason, he will lie his ass off to kevin to give that boy hope that one day he really will be okay.










