#tabbsrambles

so i forget that i have a tenancy to stop drawing when i wanna finish a piece of art and im struggling to work on that specific piece and i get so damn afraid im never gonna finish it, SO THEN I END UP DAYS WITHOUT DRAWING CAUSE IM LIKE “YOU’RE NOT ALLOWED TO DRAW UNTIL YOU FINISH THIS” LIKE JESUS FUCK Remember: There is nothing wrong with working on other projects too. its okay to go back and forth and all around with drawing whatever you’re feeling like.you’ll feel inspired to finish that piece another day. 

my au was an au of an au. but if i were to change up my au’s characters background stories...yet still kept the characters looking the same way...is that like an au/au inside of an au?  maybe like a UT/AU of some sort in an AU  cause i definatly wanna fix up some things for vincent for sure, but i love his stupid face so his stupid face is staying the same

i should probably upload here more often, but i have a LOT of WIP stuff. i guess someday i’ll share all my WIP’s here.  but as for stuff im currently working on.  I’m working on animal crossing art, some fnaf art, some oc art of illogicalvoid and mine, and im also working on some Obey Me art. (though the style and my style dont mix so im trying to find a middle ground with it) but atm my current obsession is Obey Me  so that’s gonna be fun to start drawing 

im starting to wish yuri on ice wasn’t so easily thrown into peoples face (yeah for sure im part of the group who got way too hype over it and would spam reblog a ton of yoi stuff)  but i kind of wish it wasn’t so popular...cause then... it would be appreciated a little more. then hated by most so far i know way too many people who just think it’s simply “yaoi” and that’s it... and that’s honestly upsetting to me. the fact that people practically set away a lot of the stuff about the show just to say it’s simply put “yaoi” Cause yes indeed it does have those powerful scenes and jokes about the guys and stuff but like... it’s no junjou romantica (sometimes i wish it was though XD that’s for the doujinshi’s tho)  though...i dont know. it just...im just rambling at this point cause im alone atm XD and am a little upset by it...Since for about 13 years of my life, i had been shunned for liking certain things. cause i had this one friend who was like a sister to me, at some point just get irritated by me all the time, cause i would talk about Sonic the hedgehog, or even homestuck. A lot of the things i liked, she started hating just because i would talk about it so often...so unless she liked it, she would tell me not to talk about it. and with having that for so long it just...bothered me (she did later on stop doing that since she grew up and became much more mature. plus she did the same things to me with her shows that my sister liked way too much) but i soon found friends that would let me talk about those certain fandoms and stuff... yet now i barely have any friends who like yuri on ice at this point and i feel like im stuck there again... i’ll joke and smile at my friends who had pointed out and told me that they had to black list yuri on ice. and i would act like it’s funny and laugh (plus i would unfollow them from tumblr as a joke) but in reality i was a little upset cause it’s not just one friend...it’s more of them.. i feel so... annoying and i hate it. I feel like a nuisance. cause the one anime i liked turns out to be a yaoi.  like i fucking reblogged the shit out of other things like “mystic messenger” or so many other fucking series...and i dont hear them complaining or telling me they had to black list it... but no. just because it’s a fucking yaoi, they dont like it... like... w h a t    i s    w r o n g   w i t h   t h a t ? ! *sigh* its irritating...to a point where i sometimes just want to straight out reblog yaoi in spite of them just to see their reaction. if they dont like my shit, then they should’ve unfollowed me and just not mention it...especially if i wanted to just...URG IT PISSES ME OFF ... a part of me just wants them to unfollow me...so maybe i should reblog straight out porn for a week on my main blog (not this one) just to fuck with them XD though i wont since i know a lot of people who dont would fall victim to it and i would feel bad XD anyways...gonna continue working on art then~