#taash x reader

Seeing Davrins defeated face at every new warden body you stumbled across makes you feel guilty. guilty for disturbing Solas's ritual and causing the gods to break free. Guilty for Davrin and Lucanis going at each others throats for messing up. You should have payed more attention to your team, made sure they were ready for this fight. But both Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain walked away alive. You replay the entire battle in your head over and over again trying to figure out what you did wrong with little success.

The blinding pain in your skull returns once more, You roll to your other side in your bed hoping to find a more comfortable position to sleep in. The pain shoots from one side to the other making you sigh. "Well this isn't working" you say, getting up from your bed with difficulty. you stumble into the hallway to the railing of the second floor of the lighthouse. Quiet.. everyones asleep.

you push open the doors to the light house and step into the light of the fade. Right.. time doesn't move here.. its always light outside, your never gonna get used to that. As you suspected no ones awake its quiet almost to quiet. your starting to wonder why you came out side before

*squawk* you look around and see the young griffon standing a little away from you, right outside Davrins room as always. The little griffon tilts his head at you like asking what your doing up. "Hey Assan" you walk over to him, sticking out your hand to pet him, scratching behind his ear just how he likes. You realize just how soft his feathers are, your starting to get sleepy just petting him.

before you can get up to try to go to sleep again Assan gently bites on of your fingers before laying down almost trying to get you lay down with him. Does he know your having difficulty sleeping? is he smart enough to realize that?. He looks at you with these puppy eyes purring and gently gnawing on your finger. Aw what the hell he might just help you sleep. laying down on the hard ground and using Assan as a pillow is the last thing you remember before slipping into sleep

Bellara

Working on the Nadas Dirthalen was tiring. she had been working for HOURS trying to ask the right question and getting the spirit to cooperate with her but she's had no luck

maybe getting something to eat will help? yeah getting a snack sounds good. and then maybe a nap.

she leaves her room, walking to the kitchen when..

was rook curled up with Assan? or was she seeing something else in her peripheral?.

Turning around to see you sleeping with Assan is the cutest thing she's seen in awhile

after Weisshaupt she was honestly worried about you. She thought you might be taking what happened hard and blaming yourself for Ghilan'nain getting away but if it wasnt for you, you guys wouldn't have even killed her archdemon

she's happy your getting rest you deserved. you've helped her and the team so much she knows you deserve the rest and she doesnt dare trying to wake you up

she quickly goes to her room and grabs a blanket she wasn't using and carefully drapes it over your sleeping body, giving Assan a pet while he's asleep to

she gush's about how cute you are once more before you going back to her room to sleep herself, forgetting all about her snack

Davrin

when he wakes up the first thing he noticed was that Assan wasn't at the foot of his bed like usual. Where has his feathery companion gone?

getting up and seeing his door open was the first sign of trouble, when the hell did Assan learn to open doors??

he gets outside and immediately starts scanning for Assan

when he finds him he definitely didn't expect to see you as well

he comes over to inspect what's going on he finds you fast asleep face first in Assans feathers

he'd be lying if he said his heart didn't skip a beat or two

Davrin likes you, he hasn't tried to be subtle about it either. One of the things that draws him to you is how good you are with Assan even if he thinks you spoil him to much

seeing you like this with Assan might just solidify that fact for him

he decides he cant just leave you sleeping on the ground like this. Assan might be comfy but the ground beneath you sure isn't

he picks up your sleeping form despite Assans complaining squawk and takes you up to his room, Assan following close behind.

he lays you down on his bed. Assan jumps up and lays down right by your feet. "cute" Davrin thinks to himself

you didn't even stir when he picked you up, you must have been really tired

....maybe its because of weisshaupt or what happened after it.

he should go apologize to Lucanis, take something off your plate. he stands up walking to the kitchen leaving you to rest.

emmrich

he had been up late looking for any information he could find about the hand of glory you all had recovered from the Necropolis

it was old magic now a days forbidden from being preformed so his knowledge on it was limited

he had sent Manfred to recover a book he lent to Bellara awhile ago now. What is taking him so long?. Did he get lost around the light house perhaps?

he walked outside the light house to see Manfred hovering over something. His skeletal form blocking Emmrich's view but he could see somebody laying on the ground

was somebody hurt?!. he ran over to assist but it was just you sleeping on Assan

while he was happy you weren't hurt he thought that surely there were more comfortable places to sleep then on a messy griffon

*hiss* Manfred let out a concerned hiss while pointing at your sleeping forms

"yes i see them Manfred, what shall i do? i don't think sleeping on Assan is very sanitary but i don't wish to disturb their rest"

he asked Manfred Not expecting much of a reply. He already knew what he was going to do

he reached down gently shaking your shoulder. "rook, dear, wake up"

you wake up already missing the little sleep you were able to catch. "oh uh hi Emmrich" sleeping on Assan probably wasn't the best idea, your back was already hurting.

"rook are you alright? why are you sleeping on the ground?" his face was full of concern "i uh couldn't sleep I guess Assan looked to comfy"

Emmrich sighed at your response "rook do you remember me offering to teach Bellara some breathing techniques to help her relax?"

"yeah i do why?" you responded still a little disoriented

"why don't i teach you some as well to help you sleep of course. Manfred could make us some calming tea as well" he offered his hand to help you up

"actually... that be really nice Emmrich..thanks" Emmrichs face got hot at your sincerity but covered it with a smile

"of course rook its nothing, now lets get you inside"

you both walk into the light house Manfred trailing behind leaving a grumpy Assan outside

Harding

"Mmmm..Ahh" Harding stretched, standing up from her bedroll

she was finally starting to get used to having dreams now. Even starting to feel well rested after waking up

she was planning on going to Rivain and training with the lords of fortune to keep practicing her new magic. Weisshaupt was hard and she wanted- no needed to be better for the next fight with the gods

she wonders if maybe you would like to come with her. She knows you took Weisshaupt hard, it was hard for everyone but she cant even imagine what your feeling right now

it would be fun to get you out of the light house and doing something that wasnt trying to save the world

she leaves her bedroom, walks into the light house, up to your room and.. your not here? huh weird maybe your in the kitchen

she leaves and walks up the steps past the workshop and that's when she sees you and Assan

"... oh my gosh rook are you sleeping on Assan?" she chuckled walking up to you and Assan seeing you completely knocked out

... you looked so peaceful sleeping and pretty too..... ok she's just being creepy now isn't she

when she was in the inquisition she worked as a scout, she's slept on grass, rocks, pavement, and sometimes even trees. She knows that no matter what it ends in a hurting back and neck. It'd be best to wake you up now

"hey..hey rook" she gently shook your shoulder waking you up

"huh- oh uh hi Harding"

"morning sleepy head, what'cha doing sleeping on Assan?" she asked smiling down at you

"i uh couldn't sleep but Assan is just really soft" Harding giggled "well if you keep doing that your back is gonna hurt like hell, come on ill try making you some coffee, and ill make you my ham and jam slam"

"thanks Harding id love that" you stand up. Yup Harding was right your back is starting to hurt already

"I was also going to go to the lords of fortune to train again you should come with me yeah?" she asked walking to the kitchen

"yeah id like to spend some time with you Harding" ".....me to!" Harding replies smiling at you as you both walk into the kitchen.

Lucanis

he hasn't slept. All he can see in his head is Ghiln'nain. He was so close. There was no reason for why he missed. He was sure he could do this. "A crow never fails a contract." Those words from his grandmother replaying in is head from before she..

He's survived this night using coffee, he's on his fourth cup now. He needed to stay awake to make sure spite cant take control. Everyone should be awake by now, time to get ready for the day.

he leaves the pantry into the kitchen and starts to make a large pot of coffee for everyone. What should he make for breakfast?. His mind wonders to you. Maybe he should make your favorite breakfast but... oh he cant remember what it is.

cant kill, now he cant remember what else cant he do.

maybe he should just find you and ask what you'd like for breakfast

he walks outside and spots you and Assan immediately. strange.. what were you doing.

walking over he's able to tell your asleep. Your even breaths and eyes closed peacefully gives it away but why were you out here sleeping on the floor and not in your bed?

*sniffs* "smells like...guilt, regret, and the sting of failure" ah great he's awake. "What are you talking about?" he asks as the demon of spite materializes beside him looming over your sleeping form

"rook! obviously!. The old stench of failure is intense" ..."failure of what?" "WEISSHAUPT. they think they failed usss" "it wasn't them that failed it was me i had her so close.. and i missed"

"not to them no.. to them they should have fought harder, saved more, helped more!"

you shouldn't feel like this. it was him that failed. You were the only reason he even got close to Ghilan'nain.

He bent down reaching out to you. "NO DONT WAKE THEM" "why?" he pulls back surprised by the demons insistence "they just fell asleep despite the pain.. let them sleep" "why do you care spite?" "I like them... much more than i like you" He sighed looking back at you

he reach forward and brushed a piece of you hair away form your face. he stood up. "Where are you going?" "to make breakfast"

he'll wake you once breakfast is ready. And he'll work harder to make sure you don't have to feel guilty ever again.

Neve

notes, notes, and more notes. They were littered all over her desk, floor, and on her bed. As cute as they were the wisps had been no help, she even caught one trying to take her notes out the window into the fade.

She had slept very little with the idea of Aelia being back in Dock Town plaguing her mind. She needed to catch her before she caused more chaos but she had ran out of leads awhile ago.

Sitting here isn't going to help. But Coffee might. Then she can go into Dock Town and talk with some contacts.

Walking out of her room she spotted you and Assan immediately. She chuckled to herself, walking over to the two of you. "Well isn't this sweet" no response, "Rook?" still nothing

it was then that she noticed your closed eyes and even breaths. Why were you sleeping out here?. Just then Assan opened his eyes cooing softly at Neve

"hey Assan what are you and rook doing sleeping out here?" he squawked quietly in response. "Really?" she was talking to the griffon like she understood him, a Habit she picked up recently

"well come on Assan ill give you a treat or two before Davrin wakes up". When the griffon didn't follow her she was surprised, he's usually very food motivated.

she sighed crouching down to his level, scratching his chin.

She glanced over to you, noticing the heavy circles under your eyes. It was about Weisshaupt wasn't it?. You were much easier to read then you think.

as time passed you awoke groaning, sitting up and feeling pain shoot up your back. "Ow..." "morning sleepy head". Startled you look beside you to see Neve sitting on the ground Assan's head in her lap, drinking a cup of coffee

"oh uh hi Neve how long have you been there?" "long enough to notice you snore in your sleep. Had trouble sleeping?" she asked Taking a sip of her coffee " yeah I guess i just fell asleep on Assan but- did you stay here with me while i slept?" she turns her head away dodging the question completely and stood up.

"come on i made a pot of coffee for everyone. You should come down to Minrathous with me, ill treat you to some of Hal's fish fry" she said, walking to the kitchen. If you had been able, you would have seen the dark blush she was hiding with a smirk as she walked away.

Taash

they were sitting on the floor of their room, wraping the last rope of the Dar-saam ritual around their arm. They stood up and took a deep breath before walking out of their room.

They had another thing to do for their mother. "Taash, shokra toh ebra" the words from their mother was always in their head. They would probably be hearing more of it from her through out the day.

Walking out of the light house they weren't even able to take a step before noticing you on the ground. Taash walked over to you sleeping body. "you good?" they didn't get an answer. "...Are you asleep?".... That was a dumb question obviously you were asleep, but on the ground? seriously? that's gonna kill your back when you wake up.

Looking around they thought, should they take you to bed? the grounds pretty uncomfortable no matter how peaceful and cute you looked sleeping on Assan.

Before Taash could process their thoughts they were already picking you up from the ground, trying their best not to wake you.

They pushed the light house doors open with their back and quietly climbed up the stairs. Until one of them creaked to loudly and you immediately began to stir form your sleep.

"what- uh Taash?" "....sup" "what are you doing..?" Taash looked away from your face and instead faced off to the side "taking you to bed.. duh" "but why?" "sleeping on the ground is gonna kill your back. So im taking you to your room." they said very matter of factly, continuing up the stairs.

"... you could have just woken me up you know" you said heat rushing up on your checks. They were holding you like you were nothing more than a few grapes. "Yeah but then that defeats the purpose of you sleeping in the first place"

now you were at you room. Taash slid the door open with their foot, walked in, and laid you down on the couch that had been acting like your bed.

"hey im.. sorry that i woke you" They refused to meet your gaze "no its ok! i probably shouldn't have been sleeping on the ground anyway" "yeah.. next time you can't sleep just come to me, i can make you some tea... do you prefer lavender or ginger?" Taash finally looked at you, a small tinge of pink on their checks. You smiled "surprise me yeah?.. Thanks Taash"

the pink on their checks grew deeper "no problem" they smiled back at you before leaving your room. Leaving you to rest.

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HOLY SHIT I FINALLY FINISHED THIS. It genuinely took me 3 days to write this. Because this is my first fanfic i wanted to put like maximum effort into this and i really hope you like it.

just a reminder my ask box is open so feel free to send in a request and i will write it for you

Everything had gone by too fast. There was so much just everything. Dark spawn after darkspawn. And then they got crystalled and everything started going to even more shit. Then there was a moment of clarity, a cruel pause. They had been half way across the tight battle field as the first tentacle pierced Lace, Davrin had grabbed them by the time the second had. They were in the most piss poor attempt at a head lock, Davrin being too short but still strong enough to restrain them, by the time she fell. Something about not needing more lives to be lost, that Harding knew what she was doing, noises lost to the screams.

And then the blight bitch fell. She fucking fell and everything shook as she screamed loud enough to pierce the veil. The dark spawn stopped coming, it was still chaos but there was a moment of pause. Then, as Davrin helped them and Neve to their feet, Taash frantically looked for a person, their person. Instead there was this bald fuck. Solas giving some speech or something, their ears were ringing and their muscles hurt so bad they couldn't hear and could hardly see. And then he was gone and so was Rook.

"We need to leave!" Emmrich yelled from spirits knew where. "Rooks gone! Hardings gone! We NEED to leave before they regroup!"

"We have to look for them!" It was impossible to tell who was speaking, Lucanis and Spite's voice meshing into one, both equally angry and frantic. Looking at him, them?, he wasn't putting weight on his right leg. It was broken, it had to be, there was a wince as a purple energy tried so desperately to walk before collapsing into Davrin who sat waiting with open arms.

"There have to be bodies, something, there can't be nothing Emmrich. We can't leave more people behind." Neve sounded to tears as she tried to use her ice to break up the blister of blight that had seemingly swallowed their pucky scout.

Taash's brain felt empty but also too loud. They couldn't panic, Rook wouldn't want them panicking, but where were they?! A wet growl emerged past the wall of blight, followed by a roar; there were still enemies, more than they could handle and they were pissed their goddess was dead. Their arm hooked around Neve acting on its own, her protesting and grabbing at Lace's disgarded bow.

"Taash-"

"We have to leave," Neve looked at them, absolutely broken as their voice shook with poorly squashed tears. "There's too much. Emmrich's right."

"I've already looked, there's nothing." Emmrich winced, leaning on his staff as he guided them to an opening in the blight and stone. "Solas was preaching about sacrifice, how Rook had done something noble like it was meant to inspire. After all we've seen there has to be more but we can't find it here, not now."

Taash let Neve go so she could help Emmrich while they led the charge, Assan watching the rear. Most of the hoard that remained seemed daze, any Antaam this far forward had fallen back, all they had to do was keep cutting the blight so everyone could get through. Some wardens should still be near by, they'd have to work their way out of the blight and to them then to what ever eluvian they could find. They couldn't think, they couldn't afford to. Everyone was depending on everyone and if one of them faltered now it'd be like loosing a limb. Davrin was carrying Lucanis, Neve was supporting most of Emmrichs weight, if anything happened Taash had to be ready since they were the only able bodied and free one. Their throat hurt worse than it ever had but they could draw more fire if needed, they had to. They could make up for what they lacked, what they'd lost. No, no. Taash couldn't think about them. Not Bellara, or Lace, or Rook. They had to keep going, they had to.

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Once back at the lighthouse it had been confirmed Lucanis had fractured his leg, Emmrich setting him up in his study. Emmrich himself just had a sprain, Davrin and Neve both checked to make sure he wasn't down playing his injuries. Outside of some much more minor injuries the other three of them were fine. Right as rain. But there was still three large gaping wounds in the group.

"Where did they drag Rook and Bellara?!" Taash yelled as they paced in their little meeting room. Assan pitifully squawked at the mention of their unaccounted for crew. Despite not wanting to they'd all swallowed that they'd lost Lace. Even if she survived she was far too injured to stay that way for long and that's if the blight didn't eat her right up. It felt better thinking she died standing on that stone, bow still in hand, the scout she was rather than the mess of holes she became. Fuck it made them feel gross to think that way. What would they tell her mom? What would they tell the inquisitor?? Lace had so many people but also so few and the only people who knew she died stood in this building. Solas apparently didn't even mention her, the bastard. The woman who had swallowed her anger and moved on. Who held so close to her memory of Solas as this apostate she met what felt like forever ago. One of the only people who knew him as more than a god and he didn't even seem to care about her sacrifice. Her little life that was cut short far too soon. All that gave Taash peace was that the stone probably had her, it had to, and if that giant statue lady was anything to go by it meant Lace was still out there somewhere in mind if not body.

"Elgar'nan took Bellara," Neve said as she pulled her knees to her chest. She had already said how many times it should have been her, how she should have been on guard, how Bel didn't deserve this. "Solas did something to rook, I'm sure of it. Emmrich is too. We just don't know what."

"I'm going to let Assan sniff around their room, might calm him down." Davrin excused himself, calling Assan to follow which the little griffin did happily. Taash watched the two as they vanished down the hall they didn't want to be empty. As they heard Rooks door shut they fell to their knees. They were gone. Rook was gone. And they fought. Fuck they fought! Why couldn't they have just given them a hug. Why couldn't they had just told them they loved them! Why did they have to shut them out and basically tell them to fuck off?!? It hurt more than they thought it would. Taash thought that waiting would lift the burden and pain if one of them died. That it'd make everything magically easier to swallow. But it didn't. It hurt so much more. When their Tama died it felt like a chunk of their heart had been ripped out and they'd been left to bled from the void in their life. When they looked and saw Solas standing there, not Rook? It felt like their very being had been sundered. Not a piece of them that wasn't grief was left. All their body wanted, all they longed for, was that little nobody they had grown to view as their world. They wanted more than anything to hear Rooks laugh, to hear them just speak and tell them this was just a bad dream. That this wasn't reality. But it wasn't a dream and this was reality.

"Oh Taash," Neve said softly as she put her knees down and pulled them with all her strength into her lap, their head resting on her thighs.

"They're gone," Taash got out as they broke. Unbound arms wrapped around Neve's waist like a hurt child. Body heaving they wept into the woman they viewed as a sister. Just one of the family they had built that had been fractured. Fuck she was so lucky to still have Lucanis. He'd be dead if it wasn't for Lace. But Taash didn't envy Neve. Taash was also grateful their crow was still with them as well as the demon inside him. They were so thankful for every one that remained and clung to them so tightly. "They can't be gone!"

Neve wrapped her arms around them as best she could, cradling their head against her. Taash's hair was messy, chunks already having slipping out of their braid, so Neve had an easy time combing it back behind their ears.

"They aren't, I can feel it." She sounded so determined, so sure of this fact that was simple dreaming. "We'll get them and Bellara back and we'll make Solas and Elgar'nan pay."

Taash heaved. They were such an ugly crier. They hated crying in front of others too but they were way past the point of keeping it in. They didn't even have anything left of Rook. Nothing to cling to but the people around them. A door opened followed by another. There was a grumble and a familiar hiss. Taash sat up, arms still around Neve, face soaking wet and puffy already. No one would give them shit, they'd all been crying too even if some didn't want to admit it.

Emmrich's face softened as he saw them and Taash gave him the weakest appreciative smile they could. Taash half wanted to scoop him up in a hug.

"I've talked to spite," Emmrich started as Lucanis and Davrin finally made it down the stairs. Neve was just as attentive as Taash, head snapping to look at Emmrich. If Solas did anything with the fade, and since he was there he probably did, Spite would have probably felt it. Spirits and demons were sensitive to that stuff right?? It was their home they had to be!

"He said he didn't feel Rook die like he did with...with Lace." As Emmrich spoke somber looks were exchanged by the group. They knew but it still hurt hearing it. "When Rook vanished he says it felt like they were suddenly gone. Shut away like he is when Lucanis is awake."

"That means Rooks alive?!" Taash exclaimed.

"It certainly gives us hope and right now that's all we could have asked for. If Solas shut Rook away it is very possible he simply used them to replace himself so the veil wouldn't rip open like it had previously. He used our dear friend to patch a hole in other words."

'Well we just have to rip it open again to get them back right?" Emmrich tiredly smiled at Taash, happy seeing his ramblings had sunk in.

"Exactly! Once our wounds are healed and the Wardens finish clearing the dark spawn back we can return to the island to see if I can locate a weak point in the veil, but we would need a new dagger as it seems Solas has taken it and that may be impossible at this point." Emmrich smile fluttered away just as quickly as it had appeared.

"There are other materials that interact with the fade and we still have two mages and a demon between us, there has to be something we can do." Neve said sternly.

"My horn! It's veil quartz! Bellara said it reacts to fade stuff!" A twinge of pain like a needle to the heart shot through them at the mention of her name but they continued. "If it will work you can have it, I can get another later!"

Neve pat their hair and hugged them to her chest, hugging them as if she would lose them.

"Your horn may be too refined but that does give me an idea. It will take time but I'll do what I can to make it go as quickly as possible. I may need someone to give the watchers a visit to get some of my books."

"Assan and I can go, just tell us what we are looking for and who to give us the key." Davrin responded, Assan chirping next to him.

And then they'd formed a plan. Taash gave Emmrich their word they'd contact Isabela and do what ever they had to to get him as much veil quartz as possible, Lucanis agreed to let Spite out as much as was needed to narrow stuff down, and Neve said she would be on stand by and would pump as much magic as she could into this. As they went to part Taash managed to pull Neve to the side.

"Neve I-I know I'm twenty and I'm big and should be able to take care of myself," Neve held their hands, nodding her head to urge them to go on. "But I don't want to be a lone. I can tolerate the wisps if you'll let me set up in your office, I can just sleep on the floor and I'll even help sort papers or something!"

"Your rooms bigger," Neve said softly. "Help me drag my desk and papers over and I will happily keep you company."

They could do that. It was easy, just some carrying and swatting wisps away so they couldn't pull stray pages to the void.

"Oh and Taash," Neve started as they just made it outside. "Thank you for not letting me be alone either, We all need each other now more than ever."