#t999

walking while listening to music and the song faded out and for a few seconds i legitimately thought my hearing was fading because i was going to pass out: whatever that means

You have to be brave even if it hurts even if it means you have to hold it all inside again anything is worth it to see a smile and hope in those around you . You deserve it after all, to be suffering without a means to speak. Is this not what you wanted

Feeling good about my body but i can’t tell if that’s a legitimate feeling or just a side effect of the deep seated fetishization and romanticization i have of the idea of slowly wasting away and everyone just kind of growing to find it kind of endearing and beautiful and weird and quirky

Make it hurt more

You can go back to the past but nobody’s there

Death is not an option but i know the kind of sick unhealthy beautiful sexy disgusting shit that is in its place and when I dream of it I feel something bloom inside me

having an ED in your adulthood is simply embarrassing. I cant get my act together. Just pitiful.