sup?
see no real point in hiding it but at the same time itâs not exactly the kind of topic you just slap into peopleâs faces out of nowhere so figure Iâll just put it here, can just link it to people if they ask whatâs up with me rather than doing the good old âoh nothing let me distract you with a joke and dodge the subjectâ -routine
so Iâve been too sick to really even keep my daily happy candy cocktail down for a while now and itâs starting to show - itâs not that Iâm sad per se, I have lots of things to be happy about and I realize that and am thankful for it, always
simply put thereâs just something malfunctioning with the chemicals in my brain and that makes me miserable and exhausted. I have some options for it that Iâm pursuing but when combined with everything else ailing me itâs just not an easy undertaking
Iâm tired, very, very tired, and with the way my head is right now everything seems pointless and hollow - BUT logically I know thatâs not true and itâs just my sickness making me think those thoughts, and knowing that is what assures me that Iâm going to be fine
this is not meant to be a mopey or whiny post and I do hope it doesnât come off like that, Iâm leaving this here just because I think that if you care enough about me to read this, then you deserve to know whatâs going on - or hell, even if you were just curious for no good reason, thatâs fine too. curiosity should be a more celebrated trait
ANYWAY, I am fine in the sense that this is nothing new, I know how to handle this, and I know itâs not an eternal state of being - I just am low on power, and that makes everything from washing my hair to eating to talking to getting out of bed a little more difficult than it should be
          be good, be kind, have fun â¤ď¸ď¸
