to cum lithe and young into a world that is ours and to help to build it together, what an idea, to eat one’s father, i am one who waits; i investigate my surroundings, i interpret everything in terms of what i discover, i become sensitive, a “bitter brotherhood” imprisons all of us alike, tumescence all the more fruitful, black magick! orgies, witches’ sabbaths, heathen ceremonies, amulets, coitus is an occasion to call on the gods of the clan, it is a sacred act, pure, absolute, bringing invisible forces into action, are these virgins, these nymphomaniacs? black magick, primitive mentality, animism, animal eroticism, it all floods over me, the radiance of the goddess moon and the veils of the shadows fall, my black night, mystical and bright, black and shining, tied down with hair
careless memory of how things used to be, with a belief that things are in chaotic flux, an expectation that change will occur and the ability to accept the changes as they occur