#sv;onlinedating

For @grxnadxs

💌 - To receive a love letter from my muse

M U S ESeulgi ( Online Dating )

This was stupid. She knew it. But there was no other way she could come up with that didn’t involve the risk of puking on the spot. To say the whole incident that happened months ago still left a sour taste in her mouth and she knew it shouldn’t. She should just get over it. But that was easier said than done after everything she had been through. However, she couldn’t blame her past on him. That wasn’t fair to him. Even if she was still pretty grumpy with him.

Him? The baker who she had so willingly wanted to be her boyfriend. And now that he was, she wanted him thrown out with the other garbage. But she couldn’t stay mad at him forever. Even if she was a girl who knew how to hold a grudge like any other female around the globe. Eventually she was just going to have to forget and forgive. Especially since he had been trying so hard to make up for it ever since it happened.

And so that’s what gave her the idea of how to somewhat ease into the idea of legit forgiving him. It was gonna look ridiculous but it was all she could come up with for now. Until she could face him and say the words for when she actually meant them. Because right now even as she placed the letter in the mail, she wasn’t entirely ready to just forgive him for what he did. Lies were a huge deal to her. No matter how small of a lie. Something like that could have gotten her killed if it had been someone other than him. He could have been a mass murderer for all she knew.

Dear Jerk Face Thomas,

I’ve done a lot of thinking. It’s been months since we first met face to face. It was the day I realized you were capable of doing the one thing to me that I had hoped you would never do. Lie to me. It still hurts and sadly I think it always will. But I have to get over it. Right? I mean....I got over my last ex. Kind of. Sort of. His marks still hurt too. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever stop hurting because of a stupid man being stupid.

Chocolate. It makes everything better. So here. Make me this.

DEVIL’S FOOD CAKE

Cake Batter

1 1/4 cups sugar

1 cup buttermilk

2/3 cup vegetable oil

2 eggs

1 teaspoon vanilla

1 1/2 cups all purpose flour

1/2 cup unsweetened cocoa powder

1 1/4 teaspoons baking soda

Frosting

1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter

2 ounces unsweetened chocolate, chopped

1/3 cup unsweetened cocoa powder

2 teaspoons vanilla

2 cups powdered sugar

2/3 cup (about) sour cream

Make this for me and if it tastes good I MIGHT consider forgiving you for being a dirty lying skank. ^u^

With love,

For @grxnadxs

Seulgi & Thomas

“Okay but if we pick cherry blossoms, that basically makes one of the colors pink. Are you sure you’re okay with that?”

“Pink is cool.”

The teddy bear turned mama bear looked at her baker as they say next to each other on the couch. In a cozy place of their own. Not an apartment, but big enough for the four of them. It had been a decision at least two months in the making. And after lots and lots of house hunting and turning down all of BoA’s offers to build them a house of their own, they had found a place.

And there they sat on the couch with the female giving the male a stare that clearly stated she wasn’t convinced by his words. Of course this made the baker laugh while raising his hands in the air as if in defense.

“What? I’m serious. I like pink. Just don’t make me wear it.”

“I’m getting you a fluffy pink apron for your birthday.”

“I’ll use it for firewood.”

“I’m gonna order pastel pink tuxedos for the wedding.”

“Then I’m showing up to marry you naked.”

“........I’m okay with that.”

“Seulgi!!”

Now the only thing pink were her cheeks as she giggled and watched his whole face turn red. However, she recovered and in between lingering giggles, she said casually,

“But no really. We can totally scratch the cherry blossoms and pick something else. Maybe something white since it is going to be our wedding. And weddings are typically white.”

“Seulgi. We’re picking cherry blossoms. And you wanna know why?”

She could feel her face getting warmer as he had that tone of voice where he was about to gently put her in her place. Not that she minded. It was one of the first things she had learned about him. He had that magical way of bringing her back down whenever she tried to float away for whatever reason. Smiling sheepishly, she nodded her head timidly.

“Because after the whole catastrophe of you learning I had been lying to you about my real face that whole time we were chatting online.....and the first thing you did was slap me and threatened to drown me in the fountain we agreed to meet at......the first thing I learned about you was that cherry blossoms were your favorite.”

“I really threatened to drown you?”

“Yes. I remember it quite clearly. You also went on to say that you were going to choke me with my own cupcakes.”

“Oopsies.”

He chuckled as he watched her face turn more red than pink. All the way up to her ears. It was the cutest thing when she blushed like that. Those chubby bear cheeks and those bear ears of hers. It was sometimes a little surreal. To go from single as a pringle, which he found out she had a famous connection to pringles among fans of Red Velvet, to having this dream life of getting married and having a family.

“And Seulgi?”

“Ne?”

“I want to make red velvet cupcakes for the wedding.....and I kind of want to make our cake out of red velvet too.....”

“Thomas you are so cheesy! Omo!”

Books full of wedding ideas went flying as did a couple pillows as the couch exploded in a fit of squeals, shrieks, and laughter. And just when she had him straddled flat on his back and about to beat him with one of the pillows, the baby monitor went off with two very unhappy babies. Oops. And just as she was about to go sooth them, she was flipped into a seated position on the couch.

“Here. I’ll go get them. We can take a break from planning and cuddle for a bit.”

She had to admit, as she watched him walk off to the babies’ room.......

She may have had a lot of bad luck, but he was the best stroke of luck she ever had. Aside from her children of course.

@grxnadxs

“Well...it’s worth a shot. It’s the one thing I haven’t tried yet. What do you think, guys? Think mama has a shot?”

She looked over at the playpen where her two baby bears were crawling around and keeping themselves entertained. The baby girl, Hyemi, was gnawing on one of her teething toys while the baby boy was gurgling and giggling away as he practiced his crawling skills. He was definitely more like herself. The energetic one. Or at least she used to be. Anymore now, especially here lately....she’s been anything other than energetic.

She used to be so bright. So cheerful. So optimistic. But ever since she was abandoned to take care of her two babies by herself, she had never quite been the same. In fact....she was more like her boss, BoA Kwon, than she realized. Now she understood why her boss had became so sick. So ruined. Falling in love had done that to the both of them. She would never forget the day she found herself waking up in a hospital bed from malnutrition. She had hit rock bottom that day.

Taking a deep breath, she shook the thoughts away and started working on her profile. Her online profile.......online as in.....Online dating profile. Yep. She was going there. It was her last option without just going to every bar in town or randomly walking up to stranger men and hoping they don’t run away from her. What else was she to do? Sighing, she picked a photo. But should she pick one with her kids? That had been her biggest struggle. Someone who could accept her kids.

Sighing, she put away the one from her stage performance and decided on a recent photo she had took with her two precious baby bears. She had dressed them up for their first day out in winter weather. With their knitted hats that looked like bear ears. They were all smiling but her smile....it could have been brighter, she supposed. Anyhow, she put up the photo and started filling in the necessary information.

Her name, the street name she lived on. Which most people knew where she lived since she lived with the Kwon BoA. She keyed in things like her age and past occupations. She wondered how many people would believe that she was the actual same Kang Seulgi that was from Red Velvet. Since she had long quit over a year ago. Once her profile was finished, she took a deep breath and hoped for the best. Hopefully someone would find her and her babies interesting. She had put her personality out there and everything.