#survivingrape

#smalltowninertia Helena on the steps leading to her apartment February 2017 Visited Helena today to discuss how to approach her coming story update. Much has happened in her life over the last 16 months and her selfless, candid and insightful sharing of all her experiences is truly inspiring.  We made this first photograph for the update this morning, full story to follow.  Previous story with Helena, here : http://smalltowninertia.co.uk/market-town-helena-every-day-is-a-morning-after

I am currently visiting my mom in Florida and will be visiting my dad on Tuesday to NYC with the love of my life and I have not been looking forward to the trip at all and I could not figure out why. I know that the eminent war right now and the situation in Australia maybe has me a little anxious but ultimately I know the truth as to why I feel a knot in my stomach . When I think of the possibility of me stepping foot on 42nd and 9th I literally freeze, that’s because that’s where I met up with the freind who raped me in 2013. He told me that night that we would only meet up for thirty minutes and he would pay for my food. I ended up drunk and naked under him 4 hours laters in a hotel room in queens. I know I talk about this situation a lot here but that’s because Tumblr Is the only outlet I have where I can talk freely about my PTSD, triggers and flashbacks which I feel have only been getting worse with time, with out judgement.