aaaaaaaaaaa i think i have a seroma or something on the left side, the swelling seems to come and go somewhat, but it feels like there's liquid near the scar at the bottom of my boob!!! i said before that i thought i could feel the implant, but i don't think that's what it is anymore. and it's sore now, but that might be from me fucking with it all day. fortunately i have a week off next week and i'm seeing the surgical PA and hopefully getting an ultrasound. i rly hope it's either a thing that will just go away on its own or they can just do something about it soon. if i need a reoperation in the same year as i get my bottom surgery revision, i'm gonna scream.
my consult for the revision went well though! even if i did wait over an hour for the doctor... clitoral hood, coming soon to a girl near you! i'll probably do that in june or july, and it'll only be a couple days off. i've been saving PTO for it since i started work. since my insurance is maxed until august, it won't affect my finances at all. and my surgeon gave me a steroid cream to help with dilation, which i didn't even know was a thing. the fact that he had a med student in tow almost made me too skittish to talk about that issue, but i'm glad i did. i now have a few months to decide if i want to get some asymmetry cleaned up also or if i will just embrace the inherent imperfection of the human body.
i said to my surgeon today that i feel like the things i worry about now are less gender dysphoria and more just the ways all women are self-conscious, and he thought that was a really great way to think about.
ffs is coming thru as the least problematic surgery. ignore the permanent nerve damage though don't worry about that part.
