#sunsun

𝘍𝘜𝘓𝘓 𝘚𝘛𝘖𝘙𝘠 : "I need you to listen to me, sunoo. carefully." sunghoon didn't look up from his phone, his thumb mindlessly scrolling through his feed. they were sitting in the corner of the crowded university lounge, the ambient noise of clinking mugs and student chatter filling the space between them. sunoo tilted his head, a playful smile resting on his lips. he leaned in closer, resting his chin on his palm. "I'm always listening to you, sunghoon. what is it ?" sunghoon finally locked eyes with him, his expression entirely flat. "stop doing whatever you're doing right now. the texting, the random gifts, sitting too close. I'm straight, sunoo. I don't look at you that way." the playful smile on sunoo's face froze. for a second, the bustling cafe seemed to go to completely silent . he slowly straightened his posture, blinking once then twice. "oh." sunoo's voice remarkably steady though his eyes lost a fraction of their usual brightness. "you could have just said that earlier." "I'm saying it now." sunghoon said lazily. "right. loud and clear." sunoo pickup his backpack, slinging it over one shoulder. he forced a polite, completely detached smile. "don't worry about it anymore, sunghoon. my bad. have a good afternoon." before sunghoon could even utter a response, sunoo walked out from the cafe. true to his words, sunoo vanished from sunghoon's radar. the daily "good morning" texts stopped. the empty seat next to sunghoon in lecture hall remained empty. when they passed each other in the hallways, sunoo simply offered a polite, distant nod before walking past without a second glance. sunghoon told himself it was exactly what he wanted. he told himself the peace and quiet was nice.

until a week later.

sunghoon was lying on his bed, mindlessly refreshing his social media feed, when a new post caught his eye. it was from sunoo. it was a feed of three photos. the first was a mirror selfie of sunoo and jake, sunghoon's close friend, laughing hysterically in a clothing boutique. the second was a shot of two matching iced lattes on a sunlit table. the third was a candid picture of jake, smiling warmly at the camera with captioned : "Best shopping partner ever. Thanks for the treat, Jakey ❤️✨ !"

sunghoon sat up so fast that his vision blurred. he stared at the screen, his chest tightening. jake ? since when did they even hang out ? without thinking, sunghoon tapped on sunoo's profile, opened their dead chat log and fired off a message.

sunghoon : why are you hanging out with jake ?

the reply came instantly as if sunoo was already on his phone.

sunoo : is there any law against making friends ?

sunghoon : he's my friend, sunoo. stay away from him.

sunghoon's phone vibrated. a typing bubble appeared, disappeared and appeared again.

sunoo : wow. I didn't know you owned him. and why do you care ? last time I checked, you made it very clear that you wanted nothing to do with me.

sunghoon : that's different. I'm just looking out for my friend.

sunoo : looking out for him ? from what ? me ? I'm not a disease, sunghoon. jake is sweet, he's fun and unlike some people, he actually enjoys my company.

sunghoon felt a hot surge of irritation and something else he couldn't quite name flare up his throat. he didn't want to text anymore. he hit the call button. it rang twice before sunoo picked up.

"what do you want, sunghoon ?" sunoo's voice was sharp, far from the sweet high pitched tone he used to use. "I told you to leave jake alone." sunghoon said, his voice dropping an octave. "you're just using him to get to me, aren't you ? because I rejected you ?" a scoff enchoed through the speaker. "are you insane ? the world doesn't revolve around you ! I competely backed off just like you asked. I haven't texted you, I haven't looked at you. why are you policing who I spend my time with ?"

"because it's weird !" sunghoon snapped, pacing around his room. "it's weird seeing you with him." "why is it weird ? you're straight, remember ?" sunoo's tone was dripping with pure sarcasm. "what I do with my love life or my social life has absolutely give zero impact on you. you rejected me. you don't get to say such things." "just stop posting him !" sunghoon went mad. "no ! I like hanging out with him ! he actually pays attention to me. he thinks I'm charming. if it bothers you so much, close your eyes or unfollow me !"

"I can't just unfollow you !" sunghoon yelled back, the words slipping out before he could even filter them. there was a sudden heavy pause on the other end of the line. "why not ?" sunoo asked. his voice suddenly dropping its defensive edge, sounding quieter, more vulnerable. "if you don't care about me, why do you care who's making me smile ?" sunghoon stopped pacing, his heart was hammering against his ribs. he hates what happened between them now. "because it drives me crazy." sunghoon muttered. "what ?" "hearing you call him 'jakey'. seeing you take pictures of him. I don't want you looking at him like that." sunghoon confessed.

"sunghoon, you're not making any sense. you're literally told me to stop seeking attention from you. you told me you're straight." sunoo hint his frustration. "I lied, okay ?! I lied. I was scared." sunghoon shouted into the phone, letting out his frustrated breath. absolute silence came from sunoo's side. "sunoo ? say something." "you... you lied ?" about being straight ?" sunoo whispered. "yeah." sunghoon voice cracking slightly, he sat down on the edge of his bed, burying his face in his hand. "I've never... never liked a guy before. when you kept flirting with me and acting all cute, it messed with my head. I didn't know how to handle it, so I just reacted the only way I knew how. I thought if I pushed you away, everything would go back to normal." "and did it ?" sunoo asked softly. "no, it sucked. it was miserable. and then I saw you with jake, I realized I didn't want you to stop being needy toward me. I just wanted you to only do it with me." "where are you right now ?" sunoo asked suddenly. "my dorm." "I'm coming over." then the line went dead. twenty minutes later, aggressive knocks rattled at sunghoon's door. he practically threw himself across the room to unlock it.

sunoo stood in the doorway. his cheeks were slightly flushed from walking fast and his hair a little messy. sunoo just stepped inside and kicked the door shut behind him, crossed his arm and staring sunghoon up and down. "say it to my face." sunoo demanded. sunghoon swallowed, suddenly feeling small despite being taller. "say what ?" "what you said on the phone. look me in the eyes and say it." sunoo demanded again. sunghoon took a slow step forward, closing the distance between them until he could smell the scent of sunoo's vanilla perfume. the exact scent he had missed for the last whole week.

"I'm not straight. I'm gay or sunoo-sexual." sunghoon said, his voice steadying as he looked directly into sunoo's cat eyes. "whatever it is, I only want you. I'm sorry I hurt you." sunoo's eyes wavered, the tough expression melting away. a small and familiar pout formed on his lips. "you're were so mean to me. I cried, you know." sunghoon stepped closer, reaching out to wrap his hands around sunoo's waist. "I know, I'm an idiot." sunoo didn't pull away, sunghoon pulling him against his chest. "I'll make it up to you. just... delete the pictures of jake."

sunoo let out his soft laugh, instantly healing the tension in the dorm. he reached up, hanging his arms around sunghoon's neck. "jake actually spent the whole day helping me pick out an outfit that would look good on me for trying to win you back. jake is dating heeseung anyway. we were just talking about how to make you jealous." sunoo admitted. sunghoon stunned, "wait, you planned this ?" sunoo smirked, leaning in until their nose brushed. "maybe, but it worked didn't it ? you came running."

"you're evil." sunghoon muttered, but the smile breaking across his face. "I'm charming." sunoo corrected him. sunoo tilting his head up. "are you going to keep talking or kiss your new boyfriend ?" sunghoon didn't waste another second. he leaned down and putting all his jealousy to rest.

the kiss wasn't gentle at first, it was messy release of a whole week absolute misery and stubborn denial. sunghoon's hands gripped sunoo's waist tightly, pulling him so close that there was no space left between them while sunoo's fingers tangled desperately into the hair at the nape of sunghoon's neck. when they finally parted, neither of them moved away. their foreheads remained pressed together, their breaths hot and shallow, mingling in the quiet space of the dorm room.

"wow, you really weren't kidding." sunoo breathed, eyes closed and a soft smile stretching across his lips. sunghoon let out a shaky laugh, his thumb caressing sunoo's plump lips. "did you think i was playing a joke ? after everything I just confessed on the phone ?" sunoo opened his eyes, his irises sparkling with relief and lingering disbelief. "can you blame me ? you were so cold, hoon. you looked at me right in the eyes in that lounge and crushed me." he pouted and whiny tone slipping into his voice. "I really thought you hated me."

"I could never hate you." sunghoon murmured. the honesty came easier now. he leaned down, pressing a soft lingering kiss to the corner of sunoo's lips then to his cheek and finally down to his jawline. "I hated how you made me feel. I hated that I couldn't stop thinking about you. it terrified me." sunoo shivered slightly as sunghoon's lips brushed against his skin, his hands shifting to rest on sunghoon's broad shoulder. "so... what changed ? just seeing me with jake ?" "seeing you look happy with someone else." sunghoon corrected, pulling back just enough to look sunoo in the eyes. his expression grew serious, "the thought of someone else holding you like this or making you laugh, or getting to hear you call them with sweet nicknames... it felt like I was suffocating." sunghoon lean back to kiss sunoo's swollen lips.

sunoo stared at him with soft expression that full of affection. "you're actually really romantic when you're not being a stubborn jerk, you know that ?" "shut up." sunghoon smiled, his chest full of warmth he hadn't felt in long time. he leaned again, capturing sunoo's lips in a slower deeper kiss. sunghoon tasted like the mint gum he always chewed sunoo tasted like the strawberry lip balm he never left the house without. sunoo let out a soft sigh into the kiss, his body going completely pliable against sunghoon's. sunghoon's hands slid from sunoo's waist up to his back, mapping the curve of his body.

they pulled back for breathing, and sunghoon guided sunoo toward the bed, sitting down and pulling sunoo right along with him. sunoo practically sit on sunghoon's lap, burying his face into the crook of sunghoon's neck. "you have a lot of lost time to make up for. all those times I tried to hold your hand and you pulled away. all those times I complimented your outfit and you just shrugged." sunoo mumbled against his skin, his breath tickling sunghoon's collarbone. sunghoon wrapping his arms securely around sunoo's back, anchoring him close. "I know, I'm sorry. I'll hold your hand whenever you want now. anywhere. in public, on campus, wherever."

sunoo pulled back, looking at sunghoon with suprised eyes. "really ? you're not worried about what people will say ? what your friends will think ?" "let them talk." sunghoon said fiercely, his hand gently cup sunoo's cheek, his thumb brushing over the soft skin. "the only person whose opinion I care about right now is sitting on my lap. besides, jake already knows." sunoo giggled. "oh, jake was so supportive. he actually told me, 'sunghoon is an idiot, just give him a few days to realize how much he misses you.' he predicted the whole thing."

"remind me to punch him later, and then thank him." sunghoon muttered though there was no real heat in his voice. "you can thank him by letting me take a picture of us and posting it. to officially replace his picture." sunoo teased. "no social media yet." sunghoon groaned, burying his face in sunoo's shoulder, inhaling the comfort vanilla scent. "let me just have you to myself for a bit first. no phones, no feeds." sunoo melting, he ran his fingers through sunghoon's soft hair, gently massaging his scalp. "okay, no phones. just us."

sunghoon reached up, tilting sunoo's chin higher, "you really ran all the way here ?" "I practically sprinted. the moment you said you lied... my heart stopped. I didn't care about my pride anymore. I just needed to see you." sunoo admitted with blush creeping up his cheeks. "I'm glad you did." sunghoon murmured softly. he leaned up capturing sunoo's lips once more. the kiss was comfortable. sunoo leaned into the touch, his hand sliding down to rest against sunghoon's chest, feeling the rapid thumping of his heart. it was a reminder that the straight park sunghoon was gone, completely replaced by a boy who was entirely captivated by him.

when they broke apart, sunoo rested his chin on sunghoon's chest, looking up at him with a cat-like smirk. "so, am I still too needy ?" sunghoon smiled, leaning down to press one last kiss to sunoo's lips. "you're exactly the right amount of needy. don't ever change."

𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘌𝘕𝘋 ~