dealing with death on a frequent basis has left him numb to how people typically feel about the discussion. there is often discomfort involved. sadness. some have even become inconsolable, angry, volatile. most often than not, at him, as if he is the problem, and not fate itself that should be blamed. after all, he is not the one who has stolen life from their loved ones, from them.

in fact, he fights against what they curse out. but, he understands. sometimes, logic leaves once your soul begins to cross over. sometimes, all you are left with is that gnawing feeling that something just isn't right. a finger cannot be placed on the source. so, frustration answers when he calls.