#sumvent

Ive been having a rough few weeks, the days all feel mushed together and I feel so tired all the time, I'm tired of crying over stuff too, I hope it gets better

Im not ready for this week, we didn't even get to start on putting up the Christmas stuff either ahh yea

I'm so tired, even when I'm social and enjoying the company, afterwards I feel so out of place, I'm glad people put up with me, and I'm grateful to have people to play games with.

My drivers test is tomorrow I'm just hoping I pass .... Ahh I'm so stressed but weirdly not at the same time? Idk how to explain it... Guess it's just the medicine helping who knows

My mental this week has been rough, I've been sleeping a lot whenever I can just so the week goes by faster, which isn't good.. and then at night I struggle to fall asleep so I just stay up lost in my thoughts which usually aren't good either. Hopefully things get better, but... I doubt it

well, i am officially 25 in a few minutes. im trying not to be too negative, but my mind feels like its in a dark spot right now. ive got nothing to show for a person this age. even in general, im dull, unintelligent, apathetic. i dont even know how i have the friends i do have. and even then i dont talk to them that much compared to how often other people are with their friends. i cant talk to people well i m a bit of a yes man agreeable and just say "yeah" or "i get that" a lot. what kind of person doesbt have their own thoughts and strong feelings. im a shell of a person and i fear thats all ill ever be.

im tired. ill be turning 25 soon, and honestly every day towards it i just cant stop thinking about how useless i am, i feel regret that my family is stuck with me, i wish i were someone useful, someone who made their life easier. i want to be someone who can look after them. but im a useless individual with nothing going for them and no future goals in sight. i hope one day they can forgive me

i think, genuinely, i think ill never find love , or a relationship again, im not entirely sure how one even goes about it. i dont know myself well enough, and i dont think anyone else would be interested in me for "me". because i dont even know who i am, how would they?