#summoners-path

I LEFT OUT THE W RO D UP IM GONNA KI LL MYSELF

@summoners-path - Jecht was being so open and honest here, I feel like it had to come after he gave up drinking and started being a little more brutal with himself about how badly he fucked up. Otherwise, this would’ve been a vastly different story he’d tell here.

Her. Braska doesn’teven have to specify who he means, Jecht knows the only her he could be talking about, and hedidn’t realize it until right then, but this is actually difficult to thinkabout. Not just because he lost her, but because their relationship wasn’texactly founded on the most solid of foundations. Would he think less of himbecause of it? Well, the facts are the facts, and Jecht hasn’t exactly beenknown to make the most sound of decisions. He sighs softly, runs his handthrough his hair. Dark eyes briefly glance at Braska before shifting away.

“She was…” Well, shit.Somewhere in his mind, he could rationalize it all away, not think about it,not worry about the facts of what they were and what they weren’t. But sayingit out loud? Kinda snaps it into perspective a bit. He won’t shy away from it,he wants to tell Braska everything,but it takes a moment.

“She was a fan of mine,” he finally admits, sounding almostdefeated at the admission. “Y’know, big Abes fan, always in the stands screamin’my name, went to damn near every game. She could’ve just been another fan, but shecaught my attention. Not the first one to do so, mind you.” Not that Jecht hada lot of partners or people he’d sleep with, but it was a decent handful ofwomen. Fewer than most might think, but more than many might hope. “But she wastenacious and determined, an’ passionate to a fault.

“We’d stay up all night talkin’ about…damn near anything.When something caught her attention, she could go on for hours about it, inthis way where it didn’ get boring. Her eyes would light up and she’d talk alittle faster…”

He trails off and settles into silence for a time. He knewher well, could recall still the sound of her voice and the look she would givehim when she was excited about something new. But no matter how he talked abouther, he didn’t smile fondly at the memories. What he said were facts. She waspassionate, she was excitable, he genuinely enjoyed their conversations. Butthe fact is-

“I didn’ love her. That sounds shitty, doesn’ it? I wasn’t in love with her. Truth is…” Anotherpause, and he presses his palm to the back of his neck, digs fingertips intothe muscles there. “I knocked her up. We got married to save face andreputation.” At the time, that’s what had mattered more to him: his reputation.What would the media and the fans think if he knocked up a fan? What if he didn’ttake responsibility? A good scandal could do wonders for a Blitzball career inZanarkand, but Jecht wasn’t willing to risk it in case this was the scandalthat ruined him.

“And…I wasn’ a good dad, and she wasn’ a good mom. We triedat first. I…I love my kid. Cutest damn kid I’d ever seen, and that ain’t justvanity talkin’. Bluest eyes, blondest hair, and sweetest laugh you can imagine.He’d grab my hair when I held ‘im, sometimes hide his face in it when he gotscared.” His smile finally reaches his eyes, though it’s melancholy, filledwith regret. “But shit got hard, and when I stopped caring, well…so did she.Our kid suffered because of it. And I let it happen. S’long as I had herattention and a bottle of booze, I could drown out the world.” His words catchand it takes a second for him to continue. When he does, his voice is low. “Andhis crying.”

He could use a drink right then, but his flask is gone andhe’s been clean of any booze for longer than he’d been in years. Still, hismouth parches with want, fingers curl into his palm and then flex back out.

                       As far as Rivasys was concerned, the Restoration Committee thought she was in Twilight Town. Well except for Mari, but she had enough faith in her friend that she would trust her judgment, and knew that if she needed anything Mari was a message away. Hopefully it wouldn’t come to that. Ri knew deep in her bones that this was something she needed to do, to right the wrongs that had happened because of her judgments. It may not be something Merlin would be willing to permit, if he found out the exact location she was really in. But she was beyond those worries to turn back now. The legends of this world were thankfully well known, but unfortunately sporadic at best and vague at worst. They all pointed to the misty and damp tunnels that laid below the brightly shinning Colosseum of heroes. It seemed only fitting that the final resting place of most heroes was directly below their battleground.

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Carbuncle was sat in a chair in this man’s home. He had invited her in and wasn’t sure why but she knew she could trust him because she could sense the summon magic he used to have. It was odd that he didn’t have it any more but maybe that’s how it worked on this world. Once you used that magic you couldn’t use it any more. 

So tea was a drink, sounded nice. She could hear humor in his voice and relaxed a little more. Carbuncle saw the cup and pot on the table before them. She looked at him closely when he asked that question about having met to see of she had in her Eidolon form.

//that perfection score omg. braska like don’t be so hard on urself~

// he runs himself crazy trying to live up to his own expectations

If you snuck into my room I would:

[X] Go back to sleep

[] Kick you out

[] Cuddle with you

[] Be like “How in the world?”

[X] Let you sleep on the floor wherever you decided to

[] Become angry

If you kissed me (or hugged, depending upon character/gender) I would:

[X] Kiss or hug you back

[] Smile and laugh

[] Stiffen, and feel uncomfortable

[] Push you away

[X] Be shocked

[] Strike you

If you asked me to go out with you for a day I would say:

[] No

[] Yes

[] Most certainly not.

[X] Without hesitation.

You are:

[X] Cute

[X] Adorable

[X] Attractive

[] Beautiful

[] Okay

[] Ugly

[X] Am not going to grace this with an answer (laughs bc this doesnt sound bad to me sir)You are to me a:[X] Stranger[] Acquaintance[] Ally[X] Friend [X] Love[] Rival [] EnemyI find you to be:[] Pathetic[] Off no consequence[X] Intriguing [] Frightening [X] Unsettling [] Annoying [X] Infuriating [X] Pleasant company[X] Comforting [X]  Unable to be lived without [X] Trustworthy

7. Biggest turn off(s).

Sexually? Probably myself. I get so caught up in like a 3rd-personal existential crisis when I try anything different that I kinda of freeze up and quickly lose the mood (gonna’ try to kick this to the curb when the SO moves in next month). I’m also not big on violence (in regards to myself) like choking, slapping, cutting, the like.

Otherwise? I can’t stand people who don’t use logic to come to their decisions (#likehalfofthisgoddamncountry). Scraping noises like flip-flops dragging over concrete, plastic containers scraping over cardboard, and fingernails on a chalkboard also make me want to exit my body because there is a SUPER PHYSICAL sensation that accompanies them for me and it feels AWFUL.

9. Tattoos I want.

I think machina-queen beat you to it! Lol See my other post. :)

11. Age.