#sulevi

edit: also it's pretty telling that I could only really "unleash" that shitty feeling once I was someplace private like my apartment, the place where there's people constantly, I'd just be irritated and antsy and feeling like throwing things around but not wanting to make a scene. sighs. I feel highly self-conscious about being a nuisance or inconvenience so that's not helped by having to spend time in a place where, outside of assigned tasks, I'd just be useless and not being able to do things I'd enjoy, other than play my 3DS or draw. bleh.