#stvtistics

the room was dimly lit, a candle and a lamp the only things lighting the small room he rented in his home in la push. beside him rose lay, both of them with chests heaving from the activities that had just taken place. his own body was exhausted. tired from the exertion and the heat of the passion which had come with this time together. 

of course, this time had been different.

he lays there now thinking about it. thinking about how their kisses had turned fevered and quick - how she had fallen into him and wrapped around him. how he had gotten so damn lost in the way she moved below him, the sounds she had made, that he had lost himself. and apparently all control of his outer functions. including his ability to speak.

i love you.

it had been whispered in a moment of hurried movements, but there had been no doubt that she had heard it what with his lips to her ear. now he only regretted his actions. not that he didn’t like her - obvious in the way he had kept inviting her back to his bed - but because he didn’t know how he felt outside of that like. did he love her? was he capable of love after having his heart so broken? did he want to go down that path if he did indeed love her? 

they were all questions he had no answer to.

“Who says it was a MISTAKE?” Despite his words, his voice was calm and steady. It was all a facade. He didn’t want to think that they were so fazed by the sudden disappearance when he’d awoken the next morning. He wasn’t surprised but hoped it wouldn’t turn out that way. “It WASN’T for me – I am not that kind of man.” He wasn’t the kind of man who would have a one night stand and simply act like they were strangers the next day. He didn’t like detaching himself so easily, especially not when he felt like they were really connecting with one another.

   A true extrovert, Arden eagerly looked forward to plans when she got out of work. Not that she didn’t mind the peace and quiet that work gave her, but she drew life and breath from those around her. Bopping her head back and forth in time to the record that played, time flew by faster than usual. This week, it was her turn to make plans for girls’ night, and she scrounged up a nice list of options. 

“           if i ask nicely will you put me out of my misery?  ”

@stvtistics​ SENT :

Incoming E-mail from Atari with a attachment.

Atari: I know we've been online friends for awhile but I couldn't help but get you a small gift! Maybe in the future we can meet in person :) <3 Merry Christmas!

Attached to the email is a gift card to a well known bookstore. Maybe side from video games, they could bond over books.

It  was  a  surprise.  Eddie  didn’t  know  why,  though.  They  were  friends.  Maybe  Christmas  was  still  a  strange  concept  to  him.  &  so,  Eddie  did  appreciate  being  remembered  this  Holiday.  Except...  it  was  an  utterly  USELESS  gift.  If  Eddie  wanted  to,  he  could  own  any  book  in  the  world.  He  had  millions,  &  frequently  stole  goods  for  himself.

But  how  was  she  supposed  to  know  he  was,  technically,  a  CRIME  BOSS  ?  A  man  who  was  currently  wanted  ?  No,  to  her,  Eddie  was  sure  she  just  thought  him  of  as  a  middle  class  member  of  society.

TheSphinx :  Thank  you.  Reading  is  one  of  my  favorite  hobbies,  how  did  you  know  that?  Lol!  It  was  George  R.  R.  Martin  who  said,  “a  reader  lives  a  thousand  lives  before  he  dies.  A  man  who  never  reads  lives  only  one.”  There  is  truth  to  that  quote.

He  wasn’t  going  to  tell  her  it  was  useless,  &  chances  of  him  using  it  are  slim.

TheSphinx :  Meeting  you  would  be  a  gift  itself.

He  pulled  back  from  the  keyboard  for  a  moment.  Would  she  even  like  him  anymore  if  she  knew  just  who  he  was  ?  Whilst  Eddie  believes  himself  to  be  a  NOBLE  man,  most  saw  him  as  despicable,  irredeemable,  a  homicidal  monster.  He  didn’t  like  thinking  about  it,  so,  Eddie  returned  to  typing  another  message.

TheSphinx :  Is  there  anything  you  ever  wanted?  Anything  at  all?