#studybuddiesareoverrated

Hey all, so I'm back?

I had an exam two days ago and needless to say I bombed it ( in a bad way ). I was super sad and I still am which gave rise to a fear in me that I might not get into any uni I wanna be considering the streak of low scores. My anxiety didn't help the situation and I kept on having breakdowns.

But finally I talked to my friends and they gave me hope that I can still make it. I'm not sure if I can but I will try my best.

Thankyou @coffeecodeblr @almost-rory-gilmore for being there.

I decided to take a few break days and went to my farmhouse, met my dogs and did a bit of swimming ( it was kind of like self care because all this stuff makes me happy ). I can't say I'm happy now per se but I'm hopeful.

Now I'm gonna make a new study schedule from scratch and see if I can make things work.

I guess this post is just to tell everyone that maybe sometimes thinks don't work out, but then we as humans are stubborn little beings who still don't give up. So if you're going through a tough patch and thinking that you might not make it, just know that you have people around you, me around you if you wanna talk. And that you CAN make it.

Here take a hug ＼(^o^)／

All we can do is try and I believe you will💙

DAY 19-29/30

14 MAY, 2020 - 15 MAY, 2020

Hey guys,

So I'm back, with another episode how to achieve absolutely nothing and then cry abt it..

The past couple days have been very weird. But this time I ain't gonna use that as an excuse for being unproductive. But beating myself up for it is not an answer either so.. Its okay.

The only thing I'm proud of is completing permutations and combinations. I'd been running from that chapter for long now and I finally completed it.

:)))

Today would be the last day of the productivity steak or rather the unproductivity streak. Anyway we're gonna get more and more chapters done as soon as possible..

And I'm still counting on @nineballbutmakeitstudy to teach me organic chem. ( yep I'm bad at it)

We would make a new schedule and 30 more days of productivity from day after tomorrow.

Till then I should get some sleep because I haven't been sleeping at all for the past one week and I don't want it to affect my health more than it already is.

DAY 13 - 18 / 30

8 May, 2020 - 13 May, 2020

Hiya all,

Yep it's 30 dop and not 15 anymore. I guess since the exams have been postponed I need to study a bit more.

I've taken a lot of break days in the middle anyway so the study days need to be extended too :)

THE TASKS FOR TODAY:

Modern physics ( notes + questions)

Daily organic lecture with @nineballbutmakeitstudy :)

Reduce instagram time usage

Write one poem atleast

And try not to let my depression take over me + drink water. ( these are just to motivate and remind myself sorry for being weird)

Anyway I'll be back tomorrow with the progress.

Till then adios and wish me luck!

DAY 18/?

I managed to complete 4 chapters yesterday which is great. I'm getting a little more productive day by day and thats really helping me boost my motivation.

But then on the other hand my anxiety is worse than ever. When I'm okay I'll study with no problem at all but then there are times when I'll cry for hours for no apparent reason. And I also miss my friends really badly.

But it's okay. I'm managing to do more work than before and my unproductive streak is reducing.

Let's hope it doesn't get bad again.

Anyway the tasks for the day.

Complete waves

Complete wave optics

Do prev years questions

Do Mol concept and redox reactions

Doodle in between breaks

Play badminton

Drink water

Read a novel when tired

And again if you kind humans got any advice for this bish.. Feel free to share?

Till then, adios.

~Mahi

DAY 02/15

27 April, 2020

Yo,

So I changed yesterday's schedule midway which was a bummer but I still studied for 6 hours which is more than my normal routine. It'll take time but I think I will be on track again.

So I completed complex numbers and quadratic equations with questions, checked the solutions of some questions, did some more questions of coordinate geometry and did elasticity. Oh and also reorganized my study table which still doesn't look like much but it worse earlier (trust me on this one please).

THE TASKS FOR THE DAY ARE:

Complete heat and calorimetry

Do Physics prev year questions

Start with nitrogen containing compounds

See solutions for previously attempted questions

Now I know most of these are same as yesterday but I can't keep neglecting them forever.

I'm really not doing physics anymore and I'm afraid I might forget them till the exam approaches which will be bad.

Anyway I hope I can complete this.

Wish me luck babes.

DAY 06-09/30

5 JUNE, 2020 - 8 JUNE, 2020

Hello people,

So my productivity is pretty much sinusoidal right now but yea there are times when I do manage to do some work.

Life isn't the best right now and I miss my friends like a LOT.

But I am still trying and not thinking of giving up which is a big step for me given my mental state.

Anyway stay safe lovelies <3

DAYS 02-05 / 30

1 JUNE, 2020 - 4 JUNE, 2020

Hey ya'll,

Yea the nta app and the novel, the two things I've mainly been focusing on for the past few days.

Okay so besides this I am almost done with the short notes of Wave Optics which is real cool.

I gave an online test on 1st and showed MASSIVE improvement as compared to the prev test I gave which actually helped with my mood a bit.

Anyway, THE TASKS FOR THE DAY ARE:

Give NTA JEE MOCK TEST 3

Check the solutions of the previously attempted test. And this one too if I get the time.

That's it for today.

Stay safe, ly all.

Day 11-12/?

So I did do some work the day before.. But I'm back in the unproductivity wagon again. Yea ik have been there for a long time. I can't focus now because all my exams are postponed and I'm really sick of studying continously. It's hampering my mental health too because not studying gives me serious anxiety. Also I'm feeling sleepy the whole day and having terrible insomnia at night. Which would have worked in normal case but I'm not allowed to stay up late so can't even study at that time -_-

I completed this doodle finally. Really proud of it tbh. It helped calm me down a bit. Oh and also guy watch ONWARD it's a really cute and wholesome movie. In midst of my panic attacks I decided to watch it so that my mood would get better and it did, which by the way is really cool :))

Anyway still worried that I can't study but have to try.

Any tips?

~ Mahi <3