i have to remind myself that "doing education the right way" also means a lot of failing and mistakes and overlooked instructions. it's a lot of mental blocks, confusion, and desk-banging. it's writhing in shame after submitting an assignment with the wrong file name. it's the struggle to shorten an essay to adhere to guidelines and argue succinctly. it's HARD MESSY OFTEN UNREWARDING WORK but i'm LEARNING
the next assignment WILL be better. the approach will be smarter. the insights will be more robust. the words and thoughts and frustrations will still storm in your head but IT WILL BE BETTER BECAUSE YOU LEARNED SOMETHING FROM THE PREVIOUS STRUGGLE
education isn't one exam and the next. it's the one topic again and again and again. and again. and a-fucking-gain. it's topics resurfacing, expanding, gaining weight, because you're revising it again and again. you're making mistakes again and again. i have to remind myself that's what it is, and no amount of AIs or fancy websites or decorated flashcards will ever surpass the simpleness of this truth: education is in the mistakes. perfection never learns. practice does.
