#studmed

Thursday, January 5 (2017)

I chose medicine, cause I just knew it’s for me. I’ve been wanting to work as a doctor for years, I think I was around 13 or 14 years old when I first realised I’m interested in medicine. Then at one point I started hesitating and thought what if I want it just because I’ve wanted it for so long and it’s not my passion after all. I considered studying something else than medicine nor science and even applied to some universities in the UK. When I was half-way through with the application process, I realised that even though studying would be fun, I don’t want to work in any of those fields for the rest of my life. Before I started the secondary school, I was really nerdy and interested in studying. Then I got into one of the best secondary schools in the country and was suddenly surrounded by all these smart people. Also, I somehow got a group of friends, who were clever and passionate about science and they knew so much more than I did, so I started comparing myself to them felt like I wasn’t good enough anymore. By that time, I was also in a relationship with a guy, who was three years older than me. He didn’t know the nerdy side of me and had never met that passionate young girl, who wanted to become a doctor. Many of his friends studied medicine and he always told me how smart they are and how they just know everything. I think everything just piled up and I wasn’t sure about, who I am anymore. It took me some to grow as a person and to find out what I’m capable of. I started thinking what my life would be like if I don’t pick medicine and knew there would be a day when I’d think ask myself why did I gave up my dream. It was January 2014, when I wrote myself a long letter, promising myself I’ll give my best and do everything that is in my power to become a doctor one day. When I was first thinking about studying medicine, I wanted to travel to disaster zones and conflict areas to give medical help to people in need and save lives, and that is still part of my plan. Well, I’m interested in trauma and surgery, but I’m keeping my options open and see if there’s something else more interesting too. Since I’m currently having only preclinical subjects (for the next three years), I don’t know much about different specialities and I feel like I have so much explore them.