From the work conference. I am grateful!

Experiencing a lightning storm from above during flight is an experience to behold

Last day of May which is hard to believe. I've been MIA today as I ended up at work at 6am and only just left at 7pm. Only just managed a BR break by the skin of my floating teeth at 4pm but otherwise ate a protein bar on the run. We have some clients that are causing us concern and trying to have them dealt with is highly impacting my job. Add in a nursing shortage a it makes for a crazy day! In this moment all I am thankful for is that I am heading home and hubby has supper and a glass of wine waiting. Bless his heart ❤️

STSOG I could not find all the pictures of my extended family and family but these are the ones I did find. I am grateful for their sacrafices, their determination, their will to do something great, and because to the ones I have been able to spend time with have shown me how big their hearts are. I know I am missing some including my dad, his brother, and my grandfather (who flew in a b22) who were all in the National Guard. Thank you for everything, I am proud of every one of them. To have so many who are serving and have served in my family is an honor.

I'm having a hard time feeling thankful today. There I said it! Let me preface this by saying that I am not looking for sympathy by posting this, it is how I feel in this moment on this day and I have sworn to myself that I would be honest here and about this journey of mine. It's going to storm here, without looking at the sky or the tv I can tell. I've thrown up twice and my head feels like somebody needs to Release a pop safety valves of let the pressure off. I ache in every joint, bone and muscle I have. My skin is on fire to the point where lying on a sheet is painful and my sight and hearing are extremely over sensitized today. These are some of the joys of this body I live in and some days are allot harder than others. Most days I can fight through the pain of this disorder I live with and just get on with whatever the day throws at me. After all I live each day only once so live it to its fullest. I'm not typically a complainer or a negative person. Everyone has their crosses to bear and this is just mine. I was taught that no matter what life throws at you, just get up dust yourself off and keep walking forward. This mentality is what keeps me going most days. Some days are just really tough though. The exhaustion and pain of the fibromyalgia seeps in and my mind starts to falter allowing my long standing depression to creep in. The darkness starts to blacken the corners of my mind. This is a place I am all to familiar with, a place I once spent months living, a place I never want to return to. It's a place where tortured thoughts live and soulless nameless people find ways to make me doubt myself and try to convince me that life is not worth living a place of no joy, only sadness and anxiety. These are the days that are harder than others. Where I have to work really hard to enjoy my life. So as I'm lying here trying to find something, just one little thing to be thankful for it occurred to me. I'm actually thankful that I can feel these aches and pains. In feeling theses aches and pains it tells me I am alive and shouldn't every day that we are alive be a blessing granted to us? There are so many people praying for just one more day to live, just one more day with friends and loved ones as they take their last breath. So there! Today I am thankful to be alive and I will hold that thought in my heart and soul today and everyday but especially on the days that are a little harder than others.

Today's yoga practice focused on the mantra "I am grateful" which I felt was the perfect mantra for this activity. I'm grateful for so much but today I'm particularly grateful to see how much I've grown as a person. Right now I'm looking at buying a condo or townhouse for when I move to Edmonton in August. I've never thought that it would be possible to own a house and I might be able to do so at 25. I'm reflecting on this point 2 years ago when I was prepping to move out on my own for the first time and thinking about how much has happened and how much I've changed since then. I've managed to deal with some pretty terrible anxiety and depression, deal with a chronic illness, finish my thesis, switch my research, get into both PhD programs I applied to and got some great funding and those are just some of the HUGE things that have happened. I'm grateful that I've made it through the good times and the bad. I'm grateful for really committing to yoga practice everyday because it's allowed me to reflect on everything that's happened and how I deal with things.

Today I'm grateful for the discipline to get on my yoga mat when I wasn't feeling motivated. I just struggled to get myself on the mat. I had lots of excuses because it was hot or I was tired. But after dinner I got myself on the mat and after the session I felt better. I was still hot and gross feeling because it's insanely hot right now, but I felt good.

What a maroon! Taking a pajama day. Work kicked my butt, plus not enough sleep. Grateful for this fur baby, therapeutic crochet (making a blanket for my patient), and 3 nights off.