#storm?

All of us @ CoB Alec:

Thank you for everything, @chengggg .

I am very glad that someone has described this situation. I tried to speak with Jules at one time, and I was trying to convince her to stop bullying other's tastes and interests, but my comments were deleted too, and I was dropped into the black list. I don't know what is current situation in foreign fandoms, but in russian the FT fandom it's always uneasy to express your opinion due to Jules. She's weird, isn't she?

Is resting my hand on your chest

checking for the beating of your wounded heart

I remember my hand trailing to your neck

feeling for a pulse

i was scared

i stay scared for your ever idealistic mind

a chance to escape from everything

but what’s the harm?

when I trailed for your pulse I felt it

pump pump pumping to no end

your arms are limp and you’re so out of it

maybe we both are

but i remember

the sinking feeling in my chest

when I shook my head no to those two strangers

standing so patiently in your bedroom

When your heart was as fast as raging rapids

and I thought I’d never see those golden eyes flutter open again

I was sick to my stomach, but my brain was preoccupied

You are shallow breathing as I whisper to you those three words we haven’t exactly said out loud

i hope you know, i hope you know, that you’re not taking your final blow

you break out into a smile and raise up, you’re on cloud nine

two days later you turned around and didn’t kiss me goodbye