#stitchnerd

GOOD

I turned 21. Yeah, yeah, make all the jokes about being able to buy alcohol all you want, but turning 21 meant so fucking much to me. There were some dark times when I was in high school and I couldn't see myself reaching this age, so, yeah. Go 21!!!

I managed to get be a better person. I used to be this conceited dick wrinkle that I made everybody around me miserable and not hang out with me. Well, due to my conceited dick wrinkliness, I couldn't tell why until the year was half over and I almost lost those friends for good. Making and keeping to the decision to not be a conceited dick wrinkle wasn't easy, but it was damn near one of the best decisions I could have made

I made so much more friends this year. I used to be the kid that nobody would pick for dodgeball. Ever. So whenever I get the chance to make new friends, I take that chance and I run with it. And whenever I lose friends, it just drags me down for a really long time. So, to those who decided to befriend me this year, and those who have stayed with me for all this time, get ready for 2014. It's gonna be huge, and I refuse to have any regrets.

I learned the difference between loving someone and being in love with someone. There's a backstory to this, but it's a long one, and I don't want to bore you any longer than necessary. TL;DR: I was in a relationship and I let my emotions get the best of me. Things got broken off really ugly like, and it took me a long time to recover. But we're better now, and I think we both learned a valuable lesson. So, to that person, I say thank you and my deepest apologies (again).

I managed to stay with my company for two years. This is the biggest one. I was all ready to quit my job this year because I was miserable, but the best thing happened to me: I lost my position, thus freeing me up to go to new posts and learn how other guards do their jobs. It was seriously such an invigorating thing, and it really made me have some form of worth as far as my job was concerned. I definitely see myself staying here and seeing how far I can go with my company.

Bad

Yes, you knew this was coming. Thankfully, I don't have many bad things to write about, so let's get this thing rolling.

I lost my position. Wait, didn't I just say that this was a good thing? Well, at the time, it was the worst thing ever, and it wasn't until a month later that I realized that I was only miserable at work due to my position. Losing that position at the time meant that I lost my stable, 40 hr/week job, which I had always believed, and believe still to some extent, was my one saving grace in life. 

I lost someone who I was good friends with. (Don't worry, they're not dead). Honestly, I lost more than one person I was good friends with. I lost my old coworkers, I lost my best friend from high school, I lost the girl that I loved, but wasn't in love with. I lost people, people who have been a big influence in my development as a person this year, and it hurts me every day I think of them. To my old coworkers: Thank you for showing me the ropes. Even though it seemed like I never listened, I did. To my best friend from high school: I'll remember everything that we did in high school, and I'll remember everything that went on right up to our argument that day. I'm sorry, and I'll miss you. To the girl I loved, but wasn't in love with: You were the best thing to happen to me in a long time. You made me see my future as a happy one, and I'll never forget that. My only regret is not controlling my emotions better. To everyone else: I'm sorry for dragging you through this. You are awesome if you did so, and if I had a cookie for you all, I would give you all the best cookie ever.