So I know our new rule was to drop a message every two weeks or so (and I hate that rule actually remembering how much we used to talk all the time but life hates us :( ) and itās going on three and I still havenāt sent you that email like I promised some Wednesdayās ago.
But I think about that email everyday. Alllll the things I want to tell you and just jam pack with pictures and stories about how iāve been because I know you love to hear all of it. I wish my brain could type up everything in a email box for me because I canāt imagine how long thatād email Ā would be. I literally narrate things iād tell you in my head everyday, even the days when I could be sitting there ACTUALLY typing up your email but iām too tired to even move to do so. (WHICH THIS IS NOW ACTTUALLY KIND OF REDUNANT BECAUSE I COULD BE TYPING THAT EMAIL NOW INSTEAD OF THIS)
Youāre such a good person. Youāre way better than I would ever be. If I were you, I wouldāve long stopped trying to reach out to talk and keep in contact with me. Because #1 iām literally the worst at it and #2 iād honestly feel like I take our friendship for granted. Since day one iāve always been scared that youāll just snap and sayĀ āforget itā like so many people before have butā¦.god. Itās been FIVE YEARS THIS YEAR since weāve known each other and youāre still here. Youāre so patient with me and justā¦Iām honestly blessed tbh. And iām in so many wrongs to not make the proper time to enjoy the huge blessing that you are to me.
Ok consider this your abridged email bec ause we both know I could go typing for eons but I wonāt because for the eighth time I OWE YOU AN EMAIL.
I love you and your signs always help me get through my days. ā„
(i also need an update on things to put in your tag because itās gotten too scarce recently!!! c;)
