#stephaniebecker

Darling, I lost my sweetness to your words of poison. How did we become to be? Is it you that has been searching for me? Or is it I that has been searching for you? We tried our hands at this deck; you the King and me your Queen. But the cards have changed, and I'm afraid I'm not yours to keep. You became the Joker as I became the number two. What a unpleasant pair we are in this world of grim. You dug yourself a grave and took me along with you for safe keepings. I felt safe and secure, like nothing could ever harm me--not even you. You taught me how to dance with my demons, and told me that life is a lie. I had the heart then to believe you as I never believed you to be the prince of lies. Bottle to the lips, you were happy. Smoke to the lungs, you were lonely. Did I ever tell you, darling? Hell never looked so beautiful with those roses you painted black. I wish I would've known then that those black roses were for me. Useless, scared, empty, why have I become these things? Ahh, the pleasure of these tears tells me my heart still beats, but it doesn't beat no more for you. Can I dig myself out this grave?

If the world never heard from me again, it's because I got lost with you. I ran away and said goodbye to my fears, and joined you hand-in-hand on an adventure to infinity. "Infinity?" you'd probably ask. I never believed there was such a thing either. Just like I never counted the stars at night, and told the moon to tell you "hello" for me. When the moon shines, it shines brightly for you. I know that it listens to me, just like God hears my prayers when I pray for your safety and well being. If I'm lucky, if we're lucky, we'll be together soon and leave this place. Maybe we'll travel to somewhere new and forget the world for a while. I wouldn't care where we went or if we ended up being on the other side of the world; I just want to be with you. To love you is to breathe, and to breathe is to love you; didn't I already tell you before you give me everything just by breathing? Damn. I can't wait to be in your arms, and to hold your face gently between my hands. I'll kiss you with every breath in me, but I will save my last breath to whisper, "Infinity." I don't know exactly where infinity is, but when I look at you, I'll know you be there, and I'll be there too. I love you, darling.