#static.odt

really tired of being the stupidest dumbest person in every single group, no matter how big or small, no matter who is in said group, no matter what the group is about. i am always the dumbest most useless person. i'm not even allowed *in*, more like allowed to coexist parallel to the group. on the account of being a useless shit idiot.

also after a bunch of introspection (okay. okay. it was ocd fuelled rumination) i figured that while i do like the idea of adding it prnonous to my list, i am still just some vague guy creature. y know. like i even tried making fem characters in video games and it felt Bad and Wrong bc i am most definitely. not fem. in no way. there's nothing to reconnect with, for me at least. wish more games let you be weird with gender and had pronouns tbh but also like. idk. ya can be weird with gender everywhere regardless of circumstances or environment. if you're weird enough. if you let yourself be weird enough.