Can I say how much I enjoy the way you write despair and self loathing. I think it's what originally drew me to Sanguine Sky.
MC's self destructive behavior being directly correlated to their need for any type of relief; the hypocrisy in expecting honesty from the people they love while simultaneously pushing them away; the connection between their self worth and their twin; their ability to handle other people's emotions steadily decreasing. It's all just very messy and sincere to me.
Saying all that though, I was actually surprised how directly you can contemplate suicide. I can only imagine what K and I (Dunno if there's anybody else, I need to play through with another character) were thinking when they saw MC at the shooting range.
I also liked the scene with a (platonic) L. The fact you seek them out to make yourself feel better only to realize how much they're struggling as well! It's very good!
Anyway, I'm wondering how much that text at the end about the MC's twin's ex is connected to how powerless they feel and the angel thing. I'm very interested in how their mental health will link to the story and all the angel stuff in the future.
Thank you for the update!
P.S. How much is MC's identity wrapped up in their twin? They keep swapping eye colors
I can't express how much it means to me to receive so many messages from readers saying they feel drawn to the MC and to the way the negative emotions are portrayed in the narrative.
It's really important to me to include choices that help readers connect with the story and the character they play.
I can only imagine what K and I (Dunno if there's anybody else, I need to play through with another character) were thinking when they saw MC at the shooting range.
I'd like to note that the MC didn't exactly lift their hand: "For a split second, your eyes dart to the pistol gripped tightly in your hand, finding it still lowered, betraying nothing of your earlier thoughts."
However, even if you play as a composed MC, something about that moment still felt wrong, especially to K, who's very observant and has known the MC longer than the other ROs who have this scene.
But because K couldn't understand what felt off [or perhaps didn't want to let their thoughts go in that direction], their first reaction was to start yapping about proper posture while holding a pistol as a way to release the unease they felt.
If K had directly seen what the MC was thinking about, their reaction would've been completely different, more raw and honest.
Fun fact: I almost wrote that variation for K, but eventually decided to cut it from their route because of how much more closure it would've given compared to the route where the MC doesn't do this.
I didn't want readers to feel like they needed to make this specific choice to feel closer to K, since that's not how I try to write my story.
I also liked the scene with a (platonic) L. The fact you seek them out to make yourself feel better only to realize how much they're struggling as well! It's very good!
I think I did a bad job with L's platonic route, and the next update will include their platonic version because I don't want L's status as the MC's best friend to be something the narrative only tells readers instead of actually showing it.
That's all I can answer. Thank you for the message!
