#srangers

My husband's family frustrated with me, here's why.

OK, so I should be writing this one in Czech but since I use Czech basically to only talk to my husband and it is way easier for me to talk about issues in English, those who don't speak English will just have to use translator...

So here's how it's possible to love and also be totally scared of meeting new people.

One thing I absolutely love about US is the amount of events you can meet people at. There's always some comic con, concert or pre-screening going on. I absolutely LOVED going to these events and meeting new people  this way. You know that if you go to a comic con and meet a guy dressed as MCU Quicksilver, he probably loves MCU - just like you! You know that if you meet a couple guys at a Star Wars pre-screening they probably love Star Wars - just like you! It's amazing! You go to a different place, packed with strangers but you know you are not alone, you can never be a weirdo here, because all these strangers have already something in common with you - they love the same thing. Whether it's dress up, whether it's comics, whether it's a movie or a band, you already have something to talk about!

Then there are family and/or company events. You know like one or two people and you know they soon get tired of you being just with them... And the rest are... Aliens (for a lack of proper word). I got a panic attack at my own wedding because my family left and all of a sudden there were just my husband's friends and family. What am I gonna do? What can we talk about? Oh, wait: "How do you know my husband? Oh, you met at work.... Cool, cool..." And what's next??? Won't they think I'm a complete idiot? Will they agree with me? Will they like me? Will they hate me?  All I wanna do at that moment is just disappear from the surface of the Earth. If you could burry me in the Earth's core and never wake me up, I would be happy as a clam.

You know the main difference between talking to a stranger at a coming con or talking to a complete stranger at a family member's wedding is, if the stranger at coming con doesn't like you - you can just never talk to him again, never see him in you life, whatsoever! But do you think you can do that with your grandma's neighbour? With your cousin? Or even with your husband's cousin?

So yeah, recently, I disappeared from a wedding of my husband's uncle. And now I'm a certified weirdo! Yay!

I think it would be really cool if I just had some followers , people who won’t judge me, people who could tell me when I’m being ridiculous or just random people who enjoy random conversations. 

I don’t know how to make that happen. I keep following people but no one is following me.