#srab

Take and pen and write it down,

Swim through these thoughts or else you’ll drown.

Your thoughts may race,

Your mind may flutter.

But please don’t discard me,

For another.

I keep inside,

My deepest secret.

I offer you my heart,

As I rest my mind,

In the black of night,

My soul wanders,

Peering through each window of my desires and fears.

Through the twisting, winding, spiralling corridors of my brain,

My soul comes across it all.

He sees the moments that hurt me most,

And knows not to bringing them to my attention,

Of this he must refrain.

When I close my eyes all I see is trees,

Running streams,

Pebble banks crested in green.

I know THIS is where my soul feels most free.

I am never alone for I have my dog,

We walk along the stream,

While he frolics, carefree, in the water.

Get me away from this life that’s become such a slog.

I often come here to meet you when we’re apart.

You’re always there.

Dressed so casually with a smile beaming across your face,

Scolding me for being so messy “just look at you and the dog! Go get a shower” you will chuckle.

I wish you knew just how much that warms my heart.

As the dusk sets in,

And the fire of daylight dims right down low,

We light a fire of logs,

And rest on top our pan made of tin.

You sit there, cuddled up on our sofa,

Complaining about how there’s never anything good on,

While a wry smile breaks out across my face.

I really do hope this dream isn’t over.

As we lay in each other’s arms,

The dawn light cracks the window,

I must adjourn from this fantasy,

But first, once more, just let me take in the calm.

I pat the dog on the head, kiss you on your forehead and amble down the stairs.

I pull on my boots, my jacket and my hat,

Sombrely as I know that again I must leave atleast until tomorrow.

The dog circles my legs, pawing at the lead,

I give one last stroke and attach the lead, I step out into the dimly lit,Fuschia utopia....

And I’m back in those corridors in my mind...

Atleast I saw paradise,

I know where my soul wants to rest,

I’ve seen my vision of happiness.

I am mesmerised,

I have been hypnotised.

Not by the spinning wheel of black & white,

Or the swinging watch,

held onto so tight.

Nor by the steady beat of the metronome,

ticking in the night.

I have been encapsulated by the way your eyes catch the light.

By the way you roll them at the jokes I make,

And the grin that appears,

Although it's only very slight.

I have been entranced,

Just sat listening to you speak.

All the while smiling from ear to ear,

I'm sure you often think I'm a freak.

I admire your beauty,

From the moment my eyes open,

To when they close.

And then my dreams?

I most certainly can not wait for those.

Because in the dead of the eve,

When the house ceases to stir,

You can find me dreaming sweet dreams,

I just wanna fade like a bubble.

With the urge to stop holding on

My sanity is fading

And I can't stop crying

No one is here to save me

Because my love, you left me all alone,