#squillward

Sometimes you have really bad day, sometimes you are tipsy and just wanna waste sketchbook space

You might be shocked, but Squidward was my fav as a kid. He seemed so normal and wet, and I liked his voice in Russian dub)

Btw, inspired by this yuri piece, idk the autor

Some fluffy squidbob

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Less recent stuff:

Squilliam x squidward x spongebob and such doodles

Stupid sketches

WARNING: BODY HORROR BELOW

See5w and jaquline au doodles

I will be posting the newest video i did of the aus and also some WIPs im working on related to them

- Squidward started working at the Krusty Krab as a teenager, probably about 16, in which Jim was about early-mid 20s

- Squid and Squill started dating a while prior, 8th or 9th grade

- just as well, Squid was rather similar to SpongeBob during that time: innocent, bubbly, optimistic, happy, though not as naïve and extroverted as Sponge is

- Squilliam grew up in the rich kind of family that anyone who works certain jobs or makes a certain amount are “lesser” and that he is not to associate himself with “untouchables” like that

[edit since I didn’t know how to phrase it before: basically Squilliam grew up learning that love from his parents is conditional, that if he ends up like anything other than them—without money or being “unsuccessful,” he is to be shunned, and part of that is even associating himself with someone who isn’t like them]

- due to Squilliam having that mindset engraved in him, Squidward hid his job from Squilliam the best he could; especially when Squilliam started talking about “the new grease trap in town” and how he’d refuse to know anyone who dared step foot in it

- it wasn’t long until Squilliam found out, especially when he started accusing Squid of cheating and it turned into something of a big fight

- during said fight, Squilliam couldn’t understand how he wasn’t well off enough to have to work in the first place, and Squid was trying his best to explain that he only has one parent he lives with, and that one source of income isn’t always enough, especially when he needs his own boat and his mother’s money alone isn’t enough to cover a college tuition in a couple of years—even with financial aid, and it was only then Squilliam realized that Squidward is someone his parents wouldn’t approve of if they knew him fully

- “Besides, I-I’m just doing this until my clarinet career takes off! It’s like a—like a humble beginning! That—that makes it different, right? I-Is it better, at least? Please, Squilliam, I didn’t want to upset you!”

- with his upbringing, and the fact that Squilliam is still 16, he doesn’t know how to admit that he’s wrong, another thing that was ingrained in his head at a young age, so he continues trying to tell Squid he should quit and find something better but when Squid won’t back down he “calls it a draw” and says something snippy in his frustration before walking out so he can pretend he didn’t lose the argument; Squid cried himself to sleep that night already knowing there was going to be a huge shift in their relationship

- they stay together for another few months after that fight; things are never the same w them

- the night they broke up is at some sort of event that Squilliam had been looking forward to for a while, some kind of business party his parents were going to and Squid is his plus one (“as my best friend, of course” he lied due to the time period), and before going in reminds Squid to “just not embarrass me tonight, ok? <3” and “just let me do all the talking,” translating to: “don’t bring up your job”

- Squid is basically arm candy all night until 1 (one) person was actually interested in including him in conversation and he got so comfortable and excited he forgot where he was, he mentioned something about a “coworker” which then whoever they were talking to was interested in what he does since he’s “so young” to start working, and he panics, lack of response very long and his stammering didn’t help, which Squilliam rolled his eyes and saved his ass with a perfect lie and Squid knew that was going to be a very long conversation for them later

- because of that, Squilliam pulls Squidward outside before moving on to the next person “for some fresh water, excuse us a moment (c:” and, well, things don’t turn out well, Squilliam saying that he nearly ruined the night and made a total fool of himself and Squid is fighting tears but something in his anger gives him a little bit of a backbone in the moment:

“That job has changed you, Squiddy.”

“No,” Squidward argues, interrupting anything else Squilliam planned to say. “It changed you. It changed us. All you’ve done is insult me since you found out about it! That’s why I didn’t want to tell you in the first place!”

“I’m trying to help you, Squiddy!” Squilliam snaps, his expression softening. “You really wanted to hide that from me?”

“Yes!” Squidward retorts, face growing hot with anger. “You’re not trying to help me at all! You’re just belittling me because you can’t accept that I have a far different life than yours!—or, maybe, because you enjoy having some kind of power over me, and you can’t stand that I’m even something of my own person that I don’t need you!”

- Squidward was right about the last part, but even Squilliam didn’t realize it yet, not until a while after the breakup when he was the drum major their junior year and he was able to call out and humiliate Squidward at just about any point in time (except, of course, during an actual performance, but class and rehearsals were free reign), and he enjoyed feeding off of his humiliation and misery, mostly as something for “payback” for what he said (and for breaking up w him)

- due to all of Squid’s friends and acquaintances coming from being so inseparable from Squilliam, he became totally isolated for the rest of high school, nobody knowing about their breakup at all since, again, period-typical homophobia to fear

- coming from school and straight to work, Squid was miserable more and more each day and Krabs and Jim don’t know what happened but they do know it’s bad enough that he went from being so bubbly to hardly lifting his head from the floor

- Squidward was 20 when Krabs adopted 1-year-old Pearl, and while he’d gotten better since he graduated high school, he still isn’t looking too great, and soon fell a perfect opportunity for both: Squidward needed a pick-me-up, Krabs needed a babysitter

- Squidward was incredibly nervous the first time he watched over Pearl, especially being an only child and none of his cousins being even remotely his age which leaves him with absolutely no baby experience, but Krabs gave him written instructions and went over them before taking off for the day, and that was that

- Krabs especially knew he made a great decision when he came home to the lights off and Squidward passed out on the couch, Pearl sleeping quietly on his chest, with some little kid movie playing quietly in the background

- Squidward woke up when Krabs picked Pearl up off his chest, flustered and embarrassed in fear of overstaying his welcome but Krabs interrupts his startled rambling with, “Could we see you again next weekend, Mr. Squidward?”

- Squidward is notably less miserable at work every time he babysits

- years pass (present), obviously they’re older now and Squilliam has realized what he did wrong but he still enjoys feeding off of Squid’s humiliation and misery and he wants a redo so bad or at least to get what they had before Squid started at the Krusty Krab, but y’know continuously torturing your ex isn’t any way to win them back over

- Squidward also now likes SpongeBob but he’s so scared to date again and as he got older he’s been using anger as a defense mechanism and he’s so afraid of being vulnerable, especially now that Sponge knows so much about him that he didn’t want to share and he just has this way of getting anyone to spill whatever baggage they have and Squidward hates that and it’s only another thing that bothers him so much about SpongeBob

- Squilliam was never told about it, but he doesn’t need to; he just sees it, and he can’t stand looking at them together bc it’s almost just like how he and Squidward were when they started dating and it absolutely kills him that he can’t get that back, especially since Squidward isn’t the happy bubbly one anymore and he’s almost positive it’s his fault

Bonus:

- SpongeBob is also into Squidward and knows at least something about his and Squilliam’s past but at the very least he knows Squidward’s been hurt and he knows to wait for Squid to make the first move so that he knows he’s ready