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My friendships dissolved.  My family manipulated and mocked me.  The one I trusted lied to and humiliated me.  I had my last rattie put to sleep.  Post election I’m scared to go outside.  It really looked like things were turning around for a little bit, then it all collapsed.  I feel dirty and empty and alone.  I’m plugging along but it's hard and it doesn't stop.

o Mauve: How tall are you?5’4”o Orange: Any pets? And if you have, what is their name(s)?Yes!  Two rats (Howl and Stevie Ray), two hermit crabs (Janbo and Spike), and two aquariums (most of the fish are too similar to each other to name other than Lavender the betta, two rams I just haven’t named yet, and two loaches that I collectively call “the noodles”).o Purple: What’s your sexuality?I think this means sexual orientation, but I vaguely remember someone telling me it was something else, so if that’s not right let me know, please!Hetero/demi-romantic>Demisexualo Lilac: What’s your gender?Cisgender female!  I’d like to also say here real quick that people tend to assume they should use male pronouns for me, not sure if that’s my mannerisms or what, but it doesn’t really  bother me when people get it wrong, I don’t really care, so you don’t have to apologize for it in my case. :Po Navy: What’s your first language?Englisho Pink: Do you have/want piercings? If so, what kind of piercings?Each ear has a hole in it that wasn’t there when I was born, and I still never wear earrings. :/o Brown: How many hair colours have you had? My hair is naturally black, and toward the end of last year I bleached like seven ringlets worth to be kind of red-blonde.  (About to get a haircut again, there is Too Much)o Green: What are you currently studying/hope to study?Aaaah, I don’t know anymore, I’m leaning toward animal science/business.  Maybe just English but I don’t think that would do me much good.o Black: Do you have any bad habits, if so, what?I’ve bitten my nails on and off throughout the year.  Lately I’ve been biting my fingers/hand and scratching myself when I get tense.

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Stars: ExperiencesRigel: Have you ever gone on a roller coaster?I have! My knees knocked together and my teeth chattered like I was in a cartoon and I flopped out of the car and curled up in a ball when it was over. >.>Betelgeuse: What's something you can never forget about?My mind is a strange sort of sieve, some things seem to stick for no apparent reason when almost everything else slips away. The last time I caught a wild animal for no reason I just walked up to a duck and picked it up.Bellatrix: Have you ever been forced to lie/keep a secret?I wouldn't say so. I'm good at keeping other peoples' secrets, no one has to make me, and I won't let myself be bullied into lying. These gosh darn principles of mine.

Hmmm. I've confronted/spoken to a few people about things that bother me in the past couple weeks. That's a pretty big deal for me, I suffer endlessly in silence. Also saving that kitten a month or two ago was very very good. :)

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