#spirithighway

@spirithighway Thank you for the apology. It’s a step in the right direction (though I highly suggest you seek help of an actual physician instead of a reiki practitioner, if the damage to your mental/physical health is that great.)

Let’s even set aside for a moment, the blatant ploys for sympathy or pity, and the blame shifting onto your spirits - the very same spirits that you sell and claimed to people are completely safe, mind you - in your shop. This is still not enough.  I’m also calling @germanforhell (Jess) to task here - you’re equally to blame and I find your silence on this both telling and disgusting.  You’ve missed some points.

What about the times that I asked for your help or encouragement in the chat, only to have it talked over by your own fantastical astral experiences?

What about the fact that despite the apology I’m still banned from your forum, your “safe space”, your “welcoming” forum community, the one that I first suggested be created?

Above all else, what about all the manipulative shit you pulled? About the time you tried to turn me against some of my friends? What about the fact that you tried to convince me that one of them is an abuser? Or maybe the time that you tried to convince me that another shop’s vessel’s are empty and the binds were toxic and should be undone?

And this is just my stating my own experiences. I got off easy. What about MJ, who was consistently used and jerked around by your emotional manipulation, despite her repeated assertions that she was not in a mental state to be dealing with the shit you put her to? What about Hayley, who finally mouthed off to you on one post in a request for credit where credit is due, and was immediately framed as a betrayer after a 4 year long friendship? What about Cherrie, who got driven off of Tumblr and had fucking anxiety attacks over the fact that you claimed she abused the spirit she got from you, then had you lie straight to her face when you claimed you didn’t know where the allegations of abuse came from??

And what of all the people, who have said that they fear posting in the tag now because of your dismissal of any other UPG? The people who fear creating shops because of aggression and sniping towards any of them that aren’t bowing to you? What about the newbies who look up to you, and are groomed by you into thinking all of this shit is okay? It’s not just one or two people in addition to the ones above who’ve come to me about this -- it’s far too common, but the fear of repercussions, of more lies and backlash, leads them to stay silent.  I hope they see this post and feel they can come forward now.

Just remember that Citrine's spirits are usually earth aligned, so those that are not have a harder time communication wise, but they are still highly active, just communication is very hard.

that is awesome! its wonderful isnt it?

Yes!! I’m so glad it was something I was introduced to in the first place.  I love how much it’s improved my quality of life.  

Even though I know these spirits aren’t projections of my own mind, thinking about it sometimes reminds me of that trend people had a while ago where they had “daemons,” which was based off of the concept in the His Dark Materials books.  They did really intense self-analysis, picked an animal they felt best represented their personality, and imagined it talking to them and walking alongside them throughout the day.  It was supposed to be a really intense psychology thing, and doing this supposedly boosted a lot of happiness and self-esteem for those who did it.

Ahaha yes, that was a long time ago that I wrote that..

I had that problem when I wanted to go and edit my own book for publication. I couldnt even look at it, it was so bad. So I told myself to go ahead and rewrite it. I know that I had to push through it, but rewriting my oldest finished book helped.

Hm, that’s probably a good idea! I don’t really have the time for that now, but I’ve figured out a way to get me reading, if nothing else. (Change the fonts to the most unprofessional ones I have, and change physical locations)

(2/2)  To be honest, I really wish that I could post more about my spirits, about the ups and downs, because it’s a part of the learning process. Thank you for the post, by the way! But there is always that lingering fear that even with nicknames, she will still try to cause harm to them and myself. Oooh sorry I rambled.. Anyway, sorry about rambling, but you post really was good and it was something I’m glad that you did post!

Ahhh.  See, that makes a lot of sense.  It’s a bitch when one idiot (or a small group of them) causes enough drama that it irreparably alters the group dynamic.  I’m sorry for whatever drama happened; spirit companions are difficult enough without a third party coming in and threatening the relationship.