#spiderproblems

so i have, correction *had....this spider in my room for a few days

It wasnt very big nor was it just a little daddy long legs either...im fine with those just i hate spiders or even just people who invade my room..

anyway, i told dad i had a spider in my room (by the way it kinda looked like a red back) and i also told him i couldnt kill it (i had already tried but everytime i got close i ended up freaking out either because it moved or because i didnt feel like actually killing it).

Dad was like, 'i'll get it for you sometime'...

Went up to bed that night...checked the corner where this little creep of a spider has been living and it wasnt there, i was like, 'hey, dad must've already killed it or taken it outside' 

Turns out that the next day the spider was indeed still alive...crawling around my blinds and i just couldnt deal with the thought of it crawling or being inhaled by me (if that is even possible for its size).

Dad had already gone to bed so i find myself slightly anxious and impatient for it to be gone.... my thoughts went to my sister who usually just kills that spider by spraying half the can of bug spray onto it... Somehow i thought it may be easier than getting close enough to squish it...

went down stairs and the closest thing i had to bug spray was insect repellent and yes, i am a horrible person someone please help me atone for my sins.

I march into my room with my little sister observing my every move... i move towards the spider and spray the insect repellent probably no stop for about 30 seconds...draining it and my wall.... but no mentally unstable Emily does not stop there as she sees it starts twitching so round 2 begins...more toxic liquid for it to bathe in

My sister say, 'i think its dead now but its not shriveled up or anything??' 

Then this spider falls from its web onto one of my pillows and i freak because i cant see it... throw everything de-spidered across the room and i finally find a still, live looking spider...

i poke it with this ruler i will probably never use again (hahah i'll probably forget about it and use it in about 2 days) its is still moving, only slightly now...

Inhumane Emily decides its time for round 3.... i end up soaking my pillow also in the process.... and after all of that i end up feeling sorry for the spider so i pick it up with the ruler, grab an old thong (flip flop) and swish it to put it out of its probably painful dyingness...

so i just wanted to share this to confess my sins and well i'll probably get whats coming to me based on the fact i inhaled half of the insect repellent fumes that are clearly stated to be not inhaled at all.... Yay and i hope the spider didnt nest in or around my room because next time i'll probably end up doing the same thing *weeps in the corner softly

I'm sorry spider, you didnt deserve the death i made you endure actually you probably didnt deserve to die at all, especially not by my hands....