#soupsings

Everyone says “saudades” is a unique word to our language and sure its beautiful but nothing feels the same as saying “eita porra!”

I am craving a very specific type of affection you only get from an individual. That's the worst part about loss. I miss you mom, this month is going to be ten years without the person I've loved the most.

i dreamt that i had gay sex with a very hot fat woman she was beautiful

Why is everything making me wanna cry today. Why I'm such a babie.

Talked to my psychologist about the hypothesis of me having autism, and he said it could be but he's never seen a psychologist test for autism in adults, so he told me to try to get clinically tested while he searches someway to help. I was also able to talk to him about a voice in my head that I refers to "her". She doesn't like me talking about her to some people, and seems overall untrustful of everyone. I do think she is somewhat of a version of me before I lost my parents, as I feel a strong fragmentation of myself before I lost my mom, after that and before I lost my dad and who I had to become after his loss. Mental illness is weird. I think I may more than one valid diagnosis.