#soreheart

sending love to anyone with a sore heart today ❤️ #loveyou #sendinglove #soreheart #anyoneanywhere #heartbroken💔 #sendinggoodvibes (at Catalina Foothills, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CSn8FZGLLcGWDXrdfN3VEc-iIqiDDGyXZnfIi80/?utm_medium=tumblr

All my souls have locked doors As all my hearts have torn And all my words forsake me As my tongue was like a thorn. . . . Rusty poetry 101 #latenightrambles #poetryatnight #afterwine #soreheart #toomanythoughts #myrabidwonder #words #poem #poetry #heart #personal #love #poet https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo7iGE9lwpo/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=tvbnua33fquh

I have been working on my Arachnophobia throughout the years and have made some significant progress. But today I nearly had a setback. With a school full of students refusing to pass on the stairs I had to take action and I relocated that spider. And while that may sound like a feet to be applauded I still have an ache in my chest from a how hard my heart was beating when I saw that thing leap and jump at me when I walked down the stairs not to mention the thud it made inside of the plastic container when it jump from wall to wall of its temporary trap. I don't want to go to sleep tonight for fear of what I will dream about. #arachnophobia #SpiderRescue #SoreHeart (at Hanoi) https://www.instagram.com/p/BozCfM3nYkX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1siagc1ah60dt

You're too far to bring you close, too high to see below... How can you give what you don't have? I leave again cause I've been waiting in vain, but you're so in love with yourself. If I say «my heart is sore», sounds like a cheap metaphor, so I won't repeat it no more.

How much a human can keep bottled up inside. It's crazy to think that maybe no one will ever actually fall in love with you? That dream you have of coming home to a husband and kids may always just be...a dream? I know there has to be some sort of purpose for me on this earth but my God is it hard for me to find. I don't think God would put someone on earth to be sad and hurt all the time? He's not selfish like that. But I often wonder what did I do so bad to deserve this life I have? It hurts so bad. My heart hurts so bad. Everyday is the biggest struggle even thinking about making it through the one I'm in. I've been betrayed by so many people. People I love and thought loved me? That's really all I know. I even seen to have a subconscious dream that my own mother doesn't love me. It's a continuous dream. I always wake up in tears and have to remind myself that she does love me. It's just so hard for me to think of anyone doing or feeling that towards me. I fight so hard to keep fighting everyday. I wanna give up so bad but I keep hearing "things will get better". I'm trying so hard to believe that. I'm at this place in life where I'm so content being by myself and I literally don't want to be around people. Gah. Why am I like this? I used to be so outgoing. One thing I commend myself for was attending her wedding. After she made the loudest expression that I pretty much meant nothing to her. That hurt beyond hurt. I just remember how strong I was during the entire thing. And how hard I cried when I got in that car to drive home. I like to think people are oblivious to some of the things they do. Because I have this huge heart and I have no idea how but I could never hurt someone like that. I'm totally rambling. It's 3am in the morning and I'm just laying here thinking about my life and crying. I'm insane. But yeah. "things will get better". I just want to know what it feels like to fall in love with someone and have them fall in love with me before I die. I hope that's not too much to ask. I hope you stay strong. And realize there are people who care and love you so much. Don't end up like me. Stay strong. It'll be worth it in the end. I hope.

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