Jul 5
@signofourtimes asked: ''you can always call me.''
"I know, I just... I never what to say when I get like this. I try to rationalize myself out of these- these episodes, but it doesn't work. I try to read, listen to music, bake, cook, go for a walk, anything to get my mind off of-" Mark can't say it, but he hopes his mom understands what he's struggling to communicate. And it doesn't help he already feels guilty for calling her at four o'clock in the morning because he felt himself suffocating in his nightmare.
"I don't know how to cope with this, Mom. I keep doing what the therapists are saying, I really am, but it's... it's not enough."
