#sonatore

So I’m not new to the blogosphere, or even tumblr for the matter. I’ve had several accounts in the past that I’ve either abandoned or just didn’t take off. The main point of starting this post is for me to get thoughts out of my head in a way that feels more constructive than wordpress, and less annoying than Facebook. 

I decided to take a break from making music about a week and a half ago. It’s going great, in the sense that it’s liberating to not feel as if you have to be creating all the time; that mentality is what ultimately put me into the crippling writer’s block I found myself in. Originally I planned to take at least a month off, but I started composing drum beats in ableton, a program I have almost no experience using, and now I feel inspired to create.

The problem I’m facing right now is that I’m trying to be cautious about this newfound inspiration. I don’t want to get overexcited and immediately force myself to start creating a ton of music for an album. All I want to do is just explore and make sounds at the moment, even if they don’t serve a purpose. I have in mind what I want to do. I want to be electronic, I want to be indie rock, I want to be noisy, I want to be experimental, I want to be moody, I want to be punk, I want to create beautiful harmonies and melodies, I want to be dancey, ect. At the same time, however, those ideal sounds are the last thing I want to think about, and I just want to create without any of that self-imposed pressure in mind.

I’m feeling this in my visual art too. Currently I have five pieces completed for a series of at least ten. The current completed pieces are some of the best work I’ve ever done, especially the newest two. In my head I’m so afraid to move forward in fear that I can’t make anything up to par. At the same time, I know that’s a silly thing to do, and I should just move forward boldly and create without fear. It’s okay to make songs and pieces of art that you end up being less than proud of. It’s a learning experience. Make mistakes. Learn. Above all, remember to live.