Soliloquy
So you wanna marry me? So you want me to be the mother of your future children? So you wanna be with me for the rest of your life? Before you answer these questions, I wanna let you know some shits about me first. My name's Kyra and Kyra doesn't sound so nice unlike many other girls' names. I am not nice. I yell pretty loud and you know that. I'm a bully, look at your arms, see the scars? I bitten and scratched that, didn't I? I call you pig and many other ugly pet names, I don't even listen to you whenever you scold me. I am stubborn and a brat. I am unfair most of the time. I'm a bad cook, I cooked you food when you stayed here, remember how bad that tastes? I'm impatient and I can't wait too long. I get mad, VERY mad, when you did something I didn't like. And when I'm mad, that "beating" always happen. I'm irresponsible. I am dependent. I'm childish and nobody likes that. I am lazy, soooo lazy. I can't even comb my hair pretty well. I can't tell you sweet words cause I always get goose bumps every time. I get jealous easily. I am paranoid. And enough to be called a pessimist. I can't show you how I appreciate all the efforts you've shown me. I am miserable. All the things I've just said is real, I do complain about almost everything. I am not that "wife material". Now tell me. Can you imagine your future life with me? Do you accept and understand all the flaws that is running through me? Tell me, do you still wanna spend the rest of your life to the most miserable and chaotic woman alive? If yes, then let's get married soon. But I can't promise you for me to change because it's not that easy. But I swear to you, I would be a better person, wife and a mother to your child. And as long as you're holding my hand, I swear I am not going to detach it from you. Just keep me. And I'll make you happy.
