#someonehadtodoit

So this was a whole mood for today. I was super excited all day to get to go to the fair with my husband only for everything to just not feel fun. Kids were getting on my nerve screaming and jumping around with some balloon while their parents did absolutely NOTHING. The people were making 0 sense to me while I was trying to order something to eat and kept telling me I was ordering at the wrong area (took 3 tries). Saw my ex best friend and her niece walking around and had to avoid them half the time. Get this, took us FOR FREAKING EVER to find somewhere to sit because it was super busy and of course there was a spot right next to her. Not thrilled to say the least. Then, to top it all off, as we were heading to get some deep fried cookie dough (delicious shit, you need to try it) to take home, you’d never FREAKING GUESS who I see. The absolute GARBAGE human being who ~took advantage of me~ when I was 12. I completely lost it dude. I managed to keep it semi together until we got back to the car but the second we got in the house I had the worst panic attack I’ve had in a long time. I thought he had moved away or somehow managed to join the army or who knows what. Guess not huh. His whole family is just no bueno. His sisters are mean spirited and his parents constantly called me an attention seeking whore the whole investigation. And since he was 1 week, 1 freaking week, away from being 16 they couldn’t try him as an adult. The whole thing got brushed under a rug and all he got was a 2 day suspension from the bus. Haven’t talked about that really in a long time, maybe I should. It’s some unresolved trauma or some bull like that. I really should get some therapy or something but ya know, money. Hence the whole blog I just created. I also suuuuck at using my words in real life and I’m not talented or hot enough to be like tik tok famous or some shit. BUT BACK TO MORE RECENT TIMES, went swimming yesterday with my best friend, want to go swimming more than I am currently which has been twice this summer. And June is over in a couple days, so there’s that. I’m supposed to go to some club with my friend for their birthday Monday but I also forgot it’s our 2 year wedding anniversary so like, big old fuck me. I had to get married then didn’t I. I don’t think I have plans for tomorrow which could either be good or bad. I never truly know. My husband has a couple weeks off miraculously after tomorrow so maybe we’ll do something fun. Maybe I’ll get inspired and write or paint or idk, be productive. We’ll see I guess.