#solveable

When I face the sky

If I turn still, it would mean harm

Or that I have something clutched in my arm

But sometimes ...

people use your loyalty as justification for not loving you the way you deserve. 

*buzzer sound*

Love is something you allow just as much as it is something that happens. It is an active process whether you know it or not. You make a decision to open your heart to someone…now closing it … that’s a different story.

Ana told me the other day that you can be utterly in love with someone and meet someone else fall for them and totally forget about the first person. If that’s true, please join me in chomping down on a hand full of cyanide tablets.

Now I’m not saying this isn’t possible but this mentality kind of implies a passive role on the part of the person whose heart is in question. You allow yourself to connect with people on a level that may lead to romantic thoughts. That’s a choice. If you don’t open those doors to other people it won’t be an issue. We decide what love we want to allow in our lives, whether that allowance means allowing it to enter or allowing it to leave. And that… Although it seems passive is very much an active thing. Otherwise we’re just slaves to our own fickle hearts and we can never be sure of anything. Then what the fuck is life right? Why even try if you don’t believe that people can promise devotion and mean it … If it’s not up to them but up to this invisible metaphysical thing  ?

This isn’t to say don’t follow your heart but more to say when you find love don’t act like it can sustain itself. If you love someone if you’re in love with someone don’t fool yourself into thinking it’s impossible to feel something magical for someone else. It may not be the exact same but you can and you will if you allow.

Am I making sense here?