#solutions exist

This saved my ass many times, but only because I have a visceral sense of what grief does to people. You could hurt the people around you so bad, they could be in even worse pain than you are now. And they would know you did it on purpose because you didn't care enough about them not to. Sounds harsh, but reminding myself of that has kept me alive. My sister died when I was a teenager. Not only did I have to grapple with her death, which kickstarted bipolar+ etc that went undiagnosed for years, but I saw my mom grieving. You can't Even know. Grieving parents are ...the pain of it is incomparable. Plus, my mom has major depression and anxiety, which was a decade from being diagnosed. Imagine your death could cause this. That one death rippled out waves of damage at her school, blurring the lives of her friends and altering their trajectories. Doesn't matter how bad you want to check out. Doesn't give you the right to inflict that level of trauma on others. On the other hand, living through this gives you the potential to keep saving lives. You failed an exam? The world isn't going to end, even if you have to do a medical withdrawal and take a year off. (She said from experience.) Solutions always exist. @tylersoldtweets

Acupressure follows the same theory as acupuncture, but without needles. You work through a sequence of pressure points, using deep counted breaths and firm pressure. One element of this can be visualizing your distress as color and energy, and then breathing it out or transmuting it into healthy energy. For me, exhausted despair was that thick liquid lead laying heavy along my veins. Extreme anxiety is often bright jangly loops of electric yellow green. Even if you don't believe in chi, it is good to separate the emotion from your identity, and to choose to use touch, breath, and focus to start controlling it. Another way of saying, "this is a leash and you must obey me" to your mind. The reference I use is "Acupressure's Potent Points." Btw, not a doc, but this works for me. @tylersoldtweets