#solradguy

THANKS FOR THE ASK SOL !!!!!!!!

okay so a joke i frequenly make about sin but have genuine feelings about is that, despite being raised by sol "what are feelings?" badguy, sin ended up being SO emotionally intelligent. like sol would not have ever had any sort of conversations regarding fuckin empathy or the like with sin, he was too busy TYING THE KID TO A TREE when he was busy, yk? (dont have enough time to dig into all of my feelings on sin's upbringing lmao, i could write a whole different essay about that)

ANYWAYS! yeah. sin has a lot of issues in overture, and he feels...like he's full of a lot of rage and resentment over a lot of things. i can't entirely speak on everything as i still have yet to watch a playthrough of the entirety of overture (i know what happens! i just havent seen all of the nitty-gritty interactions with him and others) but i know that he's got a lot more rage in him then he does in xrd. which of course makes sense, since he's still in the process of understanding and eventually re-accepting ky, and he's gotta interact a lot with him on a personal level in overture, notably without dizzy to mediate, which i personally think is likely how things went down before she was frozen.

anyways i wanna move onto xrd because i have a lot of feelings about him in sign, STARTING with his conversation with sol at one point. he's just got out after talking with ram for the first time, and sol is telling him to give it up and sin recognizes this for exactly what it is, that sol is showing his own lack of trust and actively choosing not to follow him in this, and while after this is pointed out sol worries that he's trying to turn sin into him, ky is actually the one to recognize that sin understands him at his core. i mean, of course. sin's spent probably more time with sol than he's spent with anyone else, and i find it interesting that he came out of that, not being cold and callous like sol has become, but the absolute opposite. i think he trained himself to be almost the opposite of sol, to be able to see through the walls that his guardian puts up and really understand a lot of what he's getting at. it makes a lot of sense, honestly!

i'd also like to bring up a line that he says earlier in sign, which is, "my heart always has been, and will be, open to all" and i think the real thing that cements this being absolutely TRUE is that it's towards elphelt, almost immediately after being told directly by elphelt that she's quote unquote "hot shit" akin to ram. look if he was the same person as his father or his extra father he'd be worried! but he's NOT! he very much is the type of person to trust in a person and that's important! because without that they never would have worked with elphelt to the degree they did, they never would have tried to save her and thus figured out fucking EVERYTHING with rev, they never would have gotten ramlethal as an ally, none of it! because sin had trust in them and took the time and energy to pay attention to them and try to actually emotionally connect with them, and he was a big part of the reason that ramlethal realized she had feelings!!!! fuck!!!!!!! hes integral to the plot because he is inherently kind!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also fuck. fucking hell his relationship with ky. again. i could write a whole different essay on this and it WILL be covered in bread fic which yes will be updated i swear it. anyways. it takes a lot to willingly accept an effort to repair a relationship and put in effort yourself. and it takes MORE to realize the other side of the situation, especially when it's familial. i just. fuck dude. sin cares so much about his mother and through that finds a new path of caring about his own father whom he hated for almost all of his life. fuck dude. he called him dad. he called him dad. i cannot stress enough how much it fucked me up the first time i saw that scene i was crying in public about it i love them so fucking much dude. so much.

Ohoh! This will prove useful for the characters that are in the album. May need to pull out art programs to zoom in on the stuff that the browser zoom won't zoom in on close enough to read. Some text really is super ultra mega tiny and blurry.

11. show us the last thing you drew, be it a finished piece or a small doodle

doodles bc I haven't been able to draw much seriously & also I can't remember which of these I did first but!

^ the bit from the appendices where thranduil meets celeborn in the middle of milkwood after the war bc I wanted to contrast them; thranduil sort of growing into mirkwood around him & celeborn standing out. I may still adjust it & draw it properly but idk we'll see

^ marcus & esca theeagleoftheninth :} more people holding each other tenderly :}

22. what inspires you

idk entirely how to answer this one tbh!!

I guess mainly why I draw is I have a very strong imagination and I often have really strong Feelings & Images I want to visualize & communicate, so that means what I draw tends to be mainly based on stuff I read, be it fiction, nonfiction, poetry, ect. if I feel strongly about it I often really want to illustrate it to solidify the exact feeling & aesthetic & such it gives me. this isn't really a feeling I get from visual media (movies, tv, etc) because it feels pretty satisfying as it is: it already Has Been Visualized, whereas even if non-visual stuff has been drawn it's never How I See It. so almost everything I draw is from either text or music. however! I absolutely love drawing from life in the opposite sort of way where I turn my mind off & just feel the shapes of it if that makes sense

the images I do come up with are visually inspired from all sorts of places, very often historical art or reenactment (I look at a lot of this!), sometimes picture books or graphic novels, lots of places I've been to & people I've met, it's all a bit of a collage afjdsgjhkjd

Stolen Materia - Nobuo Uematsu (Final Fantasy VII OST)

If We Were Gay - Ninja Sex Party

Bury Your Heart - Flyeaf

Learning One's Craft - Michiru Yamane (Skullgirls OST)

Kimi no Kioku (Memories of You) - Yumi Kawamura (Persona 3 OST)

thanks for the ask! 💖 a little sad nothing Guilty Gear popped up but we still got 60% video game music so 🎉

oh you underestimate the amount of lobster items one person can own <3 but uh. i have two main kinds atm, both gifts from a friend? for reference, the nickname i use for smash bros on my esports team is lobtertime so its. sort of become My Brand to an extent. and so for my birthday and then Again for the holidays, my friend got me lobster keychains!

the birthday ones were a set of 24 and they're decent-sized stuffed lobsters, i have like...five? of them? on my bag? and then the ones from the holidays are like. around 100 ITTY BITTY plastic lobsters that i have yet to affix to my things but cherish nonetheless

youre SO completely fine, i have barely if ever talked about my pets, but i have two cats :]

this one is dusty, he's marginally softer but also marginally more stupid <3

and this is magee, resident cow cat!!!