Not only did I lose my best friend, but in the process of trying to find him, I feel like I've also lost myself. I dwell on the days we spent laughing, friends and family all together. Blaze, Ember, Crystal, River, Jakob, Gabbie... We had love for each other as living things should. And it's hard getting used to how different things are now. I don't want to get used to it... I want to know what happened to you, Jakob. Please come back, wherever you are. I've moved beyond anger, but I don't want to move beyond hope as well...











