#solaceinsolitude

The serenity of existing in a sleepless trance 

Where time has no bounds, and life has no meaning

Contemplation and imagination fuel the unceasingly restless sedation

The pale moonlight shines as if through an opalescent curtain

Into a vacant room where thoughts are dark and clouded

Devoid of love and feeling, numb to the stillness of the biting cold

The mind slips back and forth between reality and the endless possibilities

Never quite dreaming, as the strained beating of a bloodstained heart fills the silence

In steady time to the shaky breathing of a troubled soul

Where once was love, incomparable and unconditional

Now is a cripple of a memory, a mere fragment of space

A place where none can reach, forgotten, and forever lost

Slowly the tides turn, the moon wanes, and another day passes

Yet no movements or signs of life remain, as the air scatters the ashes

How many before me have you sought

Why should I stay, and pretend I'm something I'm not

               *I am nothing*

Even the coldest of nights and darkest of days

Share a common purpose in the heart of this world

                *There lies no place in anyone's heart for me*

Who will cry when I die

Why do I even try

               *I am all alone*

I am not afraid, but I still pray

That the next life will bring us together again

When will this end

I never asked for much

So why must I continue to suffer

What is to stop me from crossing the horizon

I have been forsaken, with nothing remaining

My hopes for a forbidden love now are draining

This is not where I want to be

But if my words don't mean a thing

I hope they fill that one empty space

Where none have injected their poison

So that one day, just maybe

You might search for a reason to stay

And remember that I was always here

Ready to catch you when you fall

You tell yourself you hate this life as days go by

You take it out on yourself, just know I'd rather die

So please just don't, and I swear I won't

Let's set aside the misery

Get past our pasts, and make this last

Oh, just tell me now

how could it be

A lonely night feels like an eternity

away from what is keeping me alive

I hear voices beckoning me to sleep

and never wake from the ceaseless screaming

  I ripped out my heart

I shed it over you

like rain falling from the sky

it promises to stay awhile

just long enough for you to feel

the way I feel, with you

  Nothing will ever tear us apart

Nothing can destroy a perfect love

Everything I say and do is all for you

  The sound of your voice (it's calling for me)

The touch of your hand (it tells me what we had was real)

The scent from your hair (it distracts me so constantly)

The blood in your veins, (it keeps my heart beating)

  I promised to never leave your side

Even when the stars look down on me

Silently I try to speak

but words can only say so much

To be with you is a gift, I never thought would be mine

  So just tell me, tell me now

are you for me, am I for you?

I question, I worry, I sorrow, I doubt

but just for a moment

I want you to believe in me,

when I tell you:

  My every living moment revolves around 

the body that completes mine

Even if eyes could not see, I know that

I would still see you with me

And if my ears began to fail,

I would still hear your voice, echoing in my head

Cause,

I have found a light that sheds through my darkness

I can feel your presence, your lips softly upon mine,

See your eyes, flashing like an all-consuming fire

Hear your every breath, keeping the air in my lungs

breathing for you, I swear,

I live, just for you

  ..And when nothing else remains

all memories deceased, just remember

I watch another day pass on

watch it fly by, leaving no trace

I'm left helpless, the sky has turned its back to me

Who do I turn to, where do I hide?

How can I save a love that died?

  The pain can't be healed, it buried itself beneath my skin

The blood has drained, it washed away all hope remaining

The longer I stay, the longer I feel

How long until I meet the horizon?

  We swore we would never say goodbye

I promised I would never leave your side

Our love is forbidden, but I take my chances

In another world, we could step into an endless dance

Let's go, and run away from this hopeless mess,