i started on tumblr back in 2008, when i was 15. my friends kathleen and mizzy were on the site and their blogs seemed cool so i gave it a shot. immediately after creating my first tumblr, i deleted because i didn’t know what to do.
less than a year later, i created a new tumblr and that’s where the party started. one of the first friends i ever made was NavK. His writing was captivating to my young soul. I had another friend here, Camille. She was always working on growing herself in Christ and challenging the ways she/we lived in this world. I really looked up to her and was sad when i realized she was no longer on this site.
i documented my teenage woes - the depths of depression and unrequited love. at some point, i had a 365 day side blog, where i would answer one “thought provoking question” everyday. i ended up meeting Tamaus through that side blog and we became pen-pals for some time. True to nature, i ended up deleting it because i hadn’t followed through with all the days. an incomplete was worse than not having it at all. Silly.
At various points in time, I had more side blogs. A fitness blog with Ingrid (that’s how I met Martha) and a private shared blog a former best friend. i really thought he was “the one” and he very well could’ve been at the time. I do believe in soulmates for a season. at some point i met vantes and his virtual friendship really expanded my horizons. forever grateful.
somewhere around 2014 i wasn’t blogging as much. by that point, i had a very pro-black/political blog but eventually stopped altogether. again, i felt the need to separate myself from the old blog and created a new one. the shenanigans continued until an ex gave me an ultimatum - get rid of the tumblrs if i wanted to stay with him. I didn’t get rid of them- but i had martha change my passwords and for 9 months, i was tumblr free.
thank goodness that relationship ended. i got back on the tumblrs but neither of the blogs felt right. they documented a lot of dark times for me and those vibes felt very tangible still. I ended up deleting both blogs - something i thought i could never do. and yet, it was an easy decision. up until that point, i wanted to hold on to my writings and growth. i always thought i could share my URLs with my future children and grandchildren. but i didn’t feel the need to. didn’t feel the need to hold on to the past.
then we get to this blog. in 2018. I guess i’ve been here for 10 years - wild. i’ve gotten rid of most of my social platforms at least once over the course of these 10 years. i currently only have this one tumblr and snapchat. every friend i’ve made here, i have as a contact in my phone.
i say it all the time - i’ve met some of my best friends in this space. the message section on all three blogs was a sacred place for me. it was where i got to connect and grow with people. it was a safe space.
i’m not necessarily going to delete this blog but my tumblr experience has definitely seen more interesting and interactive days. i really only got to writing this because i was inspired by vantes’ post. i have fallen in love a few times here, fallen out of friendships, learned more about ~everything~ here than anywhere else. i will forever and always think of this virtual space with the utmost fondness.