#sobs .. help her

aloe :   how does your muse handle grief ?

chelia always tries to maintain her best face ,  no matter how difficult situations may become.  she thrives on positivity and often keeps that mindset during unfortunate circumstances.  grief is a newfound state of mind for her.  while she doesn’t like to talk about it ,  as many of her loved ones have experienced such devastation ,  chelia had a rather “privileged” childhood ,  in a traditional sense.  despite any emotional turmoil she received from her mother ,  chelia does recognize how easy she had it growing up.  and she’s grateful for this ,  of course.  however ,  this left her a little more vulnerable to the possibility of future heart ache.  she’s a child ,  even still at age 17.  her largest concerns thus far were long distance friendships ,  losing a magic battle ,  and people being unkind to her.  she never knew the weight of losing people or constants in her life until the war.  even when her father died ,  she was only a toddler and that lose didn’t hit quite as hard –– as the most of what she had of him were memories through the people who knew and loved him.

chelia ,  in grief ,  falls apart.  she does not know how to cope.  but it’s something she’s trying to work on.  after all ,  no one ever taught her how to deal with loss.  especially not her mother.  chelia feels too intensely and is too attached the comfort of permanence and stability.  chelia’s ( unhealthy ) strategy is to fake it until she makes it.  she tries not to stray from her daily life when grief hits.  she maintains her upbeat front and even lives in denial as long as possible.  avoidance is her main strategy ,  and she knows this isn’t ideal for processing grief.  chelia does not like discussing her depression or sadness.  she would take her worries to the grave if she could.