i'm reviewing a bunch of my drafts from my Main Blog (wordpress) and a lot of these are about race -- something which I rarely end up actually posting about because out of every marginality i talk about or end up occupying, race is probably the one that people get the absolute fucking weirdest about. cis people don't like to talk about gender, no, and abled people get fuckin weird about disability, but the extent to which otherwise-marginalized white people DO NOT want to talk about being white in anything other than the most basic terms is really, really impressive
like i've got a whole list right here basically. cause every time i've run into a Stupid Thing on social media I've written like half of a column about it and then gone "i'm gonna save this in the drafts so it's not so pointed when I publish it" and then it's always relevant somehow. there was that time I got in trouble for pointing out that there's some racial baggage to the way white-bodied systems navigate "tulpamancy" as a concept, that feels like a particularly bizarre one, and there's like three in here about ascribing innocence and "oops i didn't mean to :(" to whiteness while finding elaborate ways to pin the fault on the closest person of colour instead. the ones about raceplay i will probably eventually publish because man a lot of folks can't wrap their head around "we can use kink to cope with trauma....sometimes the trauma we are coping with is systemic..... that includes race" even when they can acknowledge that for misogyny and transphobia and homophobia etc.
and like the most eye-rolling thing about this ListTM is that i have absolutely gotten hate for even the Bare Minimum Posts about these, like through my website contact form and stuff (so literally through a professional site) over such bold and daring statements as "sometimes people of color disagree with each other because we are not a monolith". and "the lens of race affects how you interact with the world even if you're not consciously thinking about it". and i am fuckin white-passing as SHIT. like less so these days cause it's amazing how much facial hair affects that (+ other things) but i'm still very lightskinned, very white coded, very white speaking, very neutral accented, very Professional Sounding, i have a white name...
...And i still get this shit.
