#smoochi-modest

Not sure what exactly I can say due to being terrible at wording praise. But, as I said over there- it was wonderful. You’re incredibly talented and I thought it would be good to compliment ya’ from a fellow stranger. Your works made me smile like an idiot. I hope my praise may bring a smile to your face as you did for me.

So thank you, so much <3 part of me wishes the series would never end. Purely because it was so well written. 😭💛

AAAAH thanku so so much you really don't know what this means to me

i think steel horses is probably my most underrated fic tbh bc i put so much work and love into it and i wish it would have gotten the same love as my other bigger overwatch fics

i'm so glad you liked it! and thank you so much for letting me know because it truly means so much that someone is still reading my fics from a few years ago <3 <3 <3 despite literally writing the fic i dont think i have the words to express what it's like to know that my older fics arent really forgotten

This is such a sweet message to come back to 🥺💕 Thank you so much, I’m thrilled that you like my work enough to be inspired by it. 😊 

hehe hello new bsd writing friend 🐟 yes, i am tuna feeeesh. 💛💛💛

18. wiping away food from someone’s lips

Bungo Stray Dogs, Dazai Osamu x reader

physical affection prompts

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A bright canary Sun hangs at the center of the azure blue sky. It was a sultry summer afternoon, with a slight breeze accompanying it. The apartment that both you and Dazai shared was getting quite stuffy and humid even with the windows open. Unfortunately, there was no fan let alone an air conditioner. It was supposed to be a relaxing day off for the both of you but apparently the weather and it’s heat had other plans.

You were lying on the couch with Dazai, wearing something cool while fanning yourself with a magazine you were reading. All of a sudden he springs up and startles you. “We should go out and get some refreshing ice-cream! I’ve heard of this ice-cream stand that has a ton of different flavors. I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice-cream!”

You loved that innocent grin that spread across his face, his childishness as well as when he gets excited. In all honesty, it was adorable. 

“And we can enjoy the cool breeze while taking a walk there” he says suggestively. “Sure, why not? I would really like something refreshing, especially if it’s ice-cream.” you say with newfound energy.

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You both stride along the pebble colored pavement, hand in hand. Enjoying the cool breeze, while you both think of what ice-cream flavor your’e going to choose.

Not too far away, you spot an ice-cream stand, with lime green, pineapple yellow, watermelon pink and plum purple patterns decorating it. The ice-cream stand had summer colors and stood out. Once you both arrived there, Dazai let you order your ice-cream first. You went with your favorite and as for Dazai he also went with his favorite, chocolate flavor. 

You both take your ice-creams and go sit on a near-by bench. Taking a lick at your ice-cream, a little bit got onto the corner of your lips without you noticing. “Thank you, I really enjoyed the walk and I’m certainly going to enjoy this ice-cream.” you say happily.

Dazai faces you and slowly starts to lean in. Part of you is thinking perhaps he’s going to kiss you? But then his calloused hand is placed on your cheek and his thumb swipes away the little ice-cream that was on the corner of your lips. Blushing, you stare at him nervously as he giggles. You feel embarrassed as well as flustered. “You certainly are enjoying it, all right.” he says smiling from ear to ear.

You puff out your cheeks and pout, still feeling embarrassed. But nonetheless you still love his giggles. You laugh it off yourself as well. He always knew how to make your day.

Maybe this afternoon did turn out to be relaxing and enjoyable. Humidity and all.

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Thank you for requesting modest! I enjoyed writing this, it made me giggle somewhat. I hope you like it! If it’s not what you wanted, feel free to request again! I wish I could get ice-cream with Dazai

Song - Lost in you by Khai Dreams

Character: Dazai x reader

Warnings: dazai’s typical mentions of suicide, slight angst in the beginning( i’m sorry)

Notes: I am so so sorry for answering this so late. I just got caught up in a bunch of school work and there’s a whole lot of tests and stuff. But anyway, thank you modest for being my first songfic request 💕 I hope this turned out okay. If this is not what you wanted feel free to request again.

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I’m just looking for some balance and some trust

Dazai hasn’t necessarily been the best person, and he still isn’t, but he’s trying. Odasaku gave him good advice and he took it. Maybe some balance is good? He isn’t entirely bad neither is he entirely good. But he’s getting better.

However, trust is a whole other thing. Trusting others would be a big step. But it’s one he needs to take. Perhaps he’s scared that he’s the one going to get hurt at the end of it. Or what if he feels he isn’t trustworthy? He just needs to find the right person, that is both trustworthy and someone who would trust him wholeheartedly. 

I’m just looking for some mutual love

A double suicide with a beautiful maiden is his dream. Sometimes, you could wonder if he meant beautiful as in looks or as people say ‘on the inside’, or both. But will that really be his dream when he finds the right person. Will that still be his dream when he finds someone who truly cares about him, who makes him laugh genuinely, who puts a smile on his face, who will love him day in and day out? Is he still willing to die when he has someone to live for?

But all I get is unrequited

He’s been turned down countless times whenever he’s asked a woman to join him in a lover’s suicide. Women looked at him with disgust and probably thought he was weird. However, not all women are the same. Perhaps she wouldn’t say yes, but rather give him a reason to live. She might even rescue him from his abyss of darkness. It’s going to take a strong person to do so but she’ll get there.

Why my world always on fire never chilly 

When he was in the Port Mafia, his world would have been on fire. Decorated with crimson red blood and war. Flames of despair consuming his world. Maybe joining the Agency calmed the flames down a bit. But to extinguish those flames entirely, he needs to heal. A special someone could help him do so. His world needs to cool down.

I used to hate the serious, I used to be so silly

Laughing and joking around is his way of coping you could say. He seems to hate the serious and takes things lightly. People may think he’s silly and nothing but lazy. But do they know what goes on in this man’s head? Maybe he thinks he’s also silly for not taking much seriously. Though, it’s not entirely his fault. He never got to have a happy childhood, he never even got to have a childhood. He isn’t ready to grow up just yet? But he already grew up years ago because he didn’t have a choice. He’s not a kid but shouldn’t we all act like kids from time to time? If we don’t, life surely becomes miserable.

And we can get lost in an off beat rhythm

Finding that special someone was not easy. But he did. Of course, he asked you to join him in a lover’s suicide, however your reply surprised him. You weren’t nasty, neither did you have a look of disgust on your face. Rather, you had a look of sadness and worry written across you face. After you gave him your answer, you smiled warmly at him. 

Sure enough, after that he never wanted to leave your side. You weren’t like the others. How, you ask? Different. Both you and Dazai were different from the rest. Perhaps you understood him all too well. Perhaps you both had too much in common. You were both lost in an off beat rhythm way different from others. But that’s the beauty of it, your rhythm was unique. Sure it was off beat but regardless you both danced to it.

Feel the way that you’re moving and I think that I get it

He would follow your lead and maybe he was getting better. Perhaps he was getting it. Maybe he didn’t want to end it just yet. You both became so close that both your souls joined into one. Loving each other endlessly. Late nights under a thousand stars, dancing to nothing but each other’s heartbeats. Staring at the late night sky, deep in thought. Chatting about lighthearted things and talking about life. 

You understood him and made him feel like he was human. Maybe his world isn’t going to crash down on him. His world is you. His saving grace. When last did he even try to commit suicide? It’s been so long that you can’t remember. Of course he would mention it jokingly here and there throughout the day but never attempted it.

And I think that I will ‘till the sun come up

Those late nights will only end when the sun comes up. Waking up to your sweet smile is the best thing he could ever imagine. He wonders how he got so lucky. Of course, you’re not perfect and neither is he, no one is. But he thinks you’re perfect for him. However, he doubts that he’s perfect for you. That you deserve better. But you always comfort him and tell him that he’s enough. 

When the sun goes down we gon’ get in touch

Dazai isn’t the best with words but he does show it through his actions. And let’s admit that he has also been deprived of physical affection. Cuddling in bed is one of his favorite things to do with you. Holding you close to his chest and feeling as if he can protect you from the hideous monsters of this world. However, sometimes it would be the reverse, you holding him close to your chest and running your nimble fingers through his chocolate brown hair. He would smile warmly whilst closing his eyes and enjoying your gentle touch. 

Cause I don’t even know, I don’t even know why

At first he would have wondered why he felt this way. What was this strange feeling? It was foreign to him. He didn’t know why he was so head over heels for you. What was so special about you that was pulling him to you like a magnet? Was it your natural beauty? Was it your personality? Was it that warm smile that comforted him when he asked you to join him in a lover’s suicide?

All your love I’m tryna find

He tried to make some sense of this ‘foreign’ feeling. He eventually found out why he was so damn attracted to you. He loved you. He wondered if you loved him back. But he thought, how could someone love a person like him? He tried to find all your love and you gave it to him without a second thought.

I’m so lost in you