Yet I’m slowly working on a post breaking that and directly talking about something that isn’t this kintype [Square] and is a commentary on the community and common thought processes.

I have all these happy memories with my friends, and it just reminds me of how much there was the happy times, but it was mostly work with my twin. We didn’t have as much fun times or enjoyment as I could with the people who’s lives were the bases of products. It was part of the job to just exist with them and just know their lives.

But Konami, was a lot more direct work and sometimes we got to hang out because of crossover projects or small times off at home.

I regret I feel like I spent more time with my date than my own little twin. The most time we shared was when we were younger and then it felt like it mostly fell apart.

As per always askbox is open, messages open, anything is up for questions, comments, sharing things, whatever.

I’ve been unable to stop myself from at least making a small list of ideas on what I’d like to write about in the future so I got things planned but for now I’m still keeping things a bit on pause (but I accidentally logged in so thought I’d make a post.)

Some of this is easy enough, all the nonhuman all the not humanity. Some phantom traits, not limbs, but phantom stuff like clothes. And again not primal instincts like an animal but there are oracle and other instincts I notice.

I have extremely heavy species dysphoria and when acknowledged as Square? Heavy heavy Euphoria.

I don’t know what I think about spiritual, psychological, or neurological influence in connection to Square. None of them sound like concepts I can understand when thinking about it through this kintype. They all feel foreign which is why I felt I need to talk at some point about the oddness of what this identity is or at least is not. I have no idea. And if it is about how Square affects my spiritual beliefs, again, no clue.

I do not have pride in my identity, it’s kind of hard to. I try to act it to fake it and I am trying to grow pride but the anxiety beneath the surface keeps it lacking. I don’t really have a way to have expressive stuff for Square unless I finally do make that moogle hat.

What is the answer to this? How does someone with my identity answer such a question?

Is it from a work of fiction? Technically no; there is no fictional source of which it exists and is referencing from but fictional sources and works are a direct part of it at the same time.

It is both No because there is no direct fictional source and it technically exists in this real world, but also Yes because there is direct connections to fiction sources.

It’s this confusing mix of yes and no, no and yes, a complicated mess of maybe. Conceptkin in general could in a sense fit this. Some concepts are a thing from fiction, depending on belief, so could be yes but also would not be the ‘fictionkin’ you’d get on that path. While also you have the not from fiction like spacekin but how the world sees it, that wouldn’t be considered the therian and traditional otherkin you see on that end either. There is this weird middle.

Yet even that middle I’m describing doesn’t feel relatable. What a mess.